[ShiningOne]

I wanted to share a bit about myself before I begin posting in more threads.

I'm 24 years old and have had anxiety and intrusive/irrational thoughts since I was a little boy. Examples of those intrusive thoughts would be my fear of losing those close to me or being betrayed by them. As a result, I tend to keep only a few close friends and have ended up quite bitter and mistrusting of others. Also, I have ADHD which was a huge source of my depression in school because I was surrounded by incredibly hard working and competitive people and my grades were generally lower than theirs.

I'm currently feeling so low because I am unemployed. I graduated from Business school about 2 years ago and ever since then I've only been able to find one part time job that I worked at for 2 months. I feel really worthless and am more afraid than ever of pursuing happy relationships with new people because I fear they would look down on me or reject me. I've been rejected by so many people from jobs searches or relationships that I feel like I don't even belong in society.

Anyway, thanks for reading all of that. I really hope to find a job soon and get out of this depressive bout, but any kind or empathetic words would be deeply appreciated.

[the abyss]

hey, just wanted to say hi, and that is a great accomplishment graduating from business school you should be proud of your self.
you are not worthless, and finding a job is hard, and relationships harder, but it will happen for you. keep going.
hold your head up high and be proud of your self.
take care

[gayleggg]

Yes, you should definitely be proud of getting you BBA. Have you tried counseling to see if you can get rid of those irrational thoughts? It also could help with your self-esteem problems.

[ShiningOne]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

Yes, you should definitely be proud of getting you BBA. Have you tried counseling to see if you can get rid of those irrational thoughts? It also could help with your self-esteem problems.

I went to therapy in the counseling center when I was back in college; my shrink was so awesome, but the treatment wasn't very effective so the psychiatrist prescribed me anti-depressants for a while. I stopped the meds after college because there were relatively few stressors in my life and they made me super sleepy and even less motivated. I know I will feel better if I find a job again, but for now I'm stuck at home job hunting for who knows how long. I figure I may as well start finding some emotional support and start sharing some kindness as well.

[Damage, Inc]

Back in 2008 my job of 10+ years was sent overseas, a job I really excelled at and loved. That same month I lost my Dad to a terminal illness. I ended up losing my home and collapsing in a deep depression in which I withdrew from family, friends and society, slept 15-18 hours per day and did not eat for 21 days straight. If I went through all of that and somehow survived at my age, I think you'll be fine, you're still young and you've got a lot of good years ahead of you. Just remember

[ShiningOne]

Originally Posted by Damage, Inc

Back in 2008 my job of 10+ years was sent overseas, a job I really excelled at and loved. That same month I lost my Dad to a terminal illness. I ended up losing my home and collapsing in a deep depression in which I withdrew from family, friends and society, slept 15-18 hours per day and did not eat for 21 days straight. If I went through all of that and somehow survived at my age, I think you'll be fine, you're still young and you've got a lot of good years ahead of you. Just remember

That's terrible that you went through all of that. You sound like you've made quite a bit of progress since then. Thank you for the vote of confidence.