[Nat92]

Hey all,

I got good and bad news.

Good news, the past 2 months I've been doing better. I've kept myself busy with art and being outside and I really felt like I was getting somewhere.

Bad news, my sister moved back home after breaking up with her boyfriend of 4 years.

Anyways, day 3 after her arrival and things are already back to as they were 4 years ago.

I'm back in the black void, just waiting to fall into the pit. It's not a nice feeling seeing everything I've worked so hard to build, just crumble before me.

My sister is a conspiracy theorists, a big one. According to her beliefs, which she obviously wants us in on - the world is a horrible place, controlled by evil men in black suits, sitting on top of a golden throne (the big corporation's and firms) - dictating the minor ones and the general human population, everything we eat is poison, all commercials and advertisement is to manipulate us, we're not free, the world is bad, aliens, we're all slaves, the system will fall, we're all doomed and I could keep on going.

And frankly, it's driving me insane.

My parents can't do anything, my mother tries bravely to stand up for herself and tell her that the budget is tight, that we're doing what we can and that we have a life to live.

My mother herself is struggling with a case which is on it's 6th year and I of course do what I can to make everything comfortable for her, I do my chores, clean the house and well I try to make the endings meet.

However, my sister is the exact opposite of me, she's manipulative, controlling and extremely aggressive if we do not comply to her commands and submit to her beliefs.

I can't stand it and I don't know how to make it stop. I tried confronting her, telling her that we do not see the same doomy gloomy world as she does, that we're just trying to survive and live a good and happy life - nothing works, we HAVE to believe her.

I know that if this continues, I will not make it through the Christmas without breaking down.

She cannot back up anything she says, it's all either from a blog on the internet or something she heard from a friend - not to say it sounds crazy.

I don't know how to make her stop, she's disrespectful to my mom and us in general, she get's angry and extremely vile, but how do I keep my spirits up?

Just today she awoke me rudely and told me to clean the kitchen, which I try hard already to maintain, but I live with my brother as well and he's quite forgetful. I'm her main target usually, she tells me how to do my hair, what to wear.

Even when I got diagnosed with severe eczema, she blamed it on my dog and cat, saying they could make it worse, however there has NEVER been any proof of pets worsening the condition of atopic eczema, which i suffer from. It's chronic and cannot be cured, although it can be mended.

Again, any advice on how to counter this? How do I stand up for myself and my family? I know this will tear us apart and one of us will have to move out.

Thanks for reading this rant. <3

[ThisWayOut]

wow, that sounds really difficult to live with. I wish I had words of advice. Can you try to keep up with what has been having you feel better lately? I know it doesn't change the situation with your sister, but it may bring some respite for yourself. (hugs)

[gayleggg]

How awful it must be to live like that. I wish I had some suggestions but I'm at a loss on this one. I hope you can avoid her as much as possible and hope she moves on soon. I guess it is too much for your mother to ask her to leave?