[Hoyam]

am 25, female, average looking (maybe somewhat gd looking I dnt know), and got a gd job (doesn't pay much but I like it). I live in the middle east so am still living with my parents with curfew and feeling am controlled and that I hadn't live my college years like I should have. And am not over a great relation I was in 3 years ago that I messed up badly (literally all my fault).
pessimism and depression is destroying me and it's affecting my health and I've been in a series of bad luck events! I dnt think I'll ever find love or happiness. I barley go out, no one wants to date me, I have few friends but not close friends. I deactivated my facebook acct a year ago because all my frnds r getting engaged and married or traveling.
what can I do? is there any books I can read?
please I want to change.

[Toneo]

I wish I could help since pessimism is rampant in my life when I am at my lowest of lows.
I can relate. I await others responses for help. I thank you for sharing.Facebook bothers me as well it seems so fake as I notice pictures of everyone's perfect happy life being posted.

[Sam2]

At the risk of sounding glib, 25 is still very young. When I was that age, I thought I had already lost the chance to do the things I wanted to do. Your perception will change eventually, but that doesn't help you now.

As long as you are under your parent's roof, they do have the right to set a curfew. They probably just want to make sure that you are safe. I moved in and out of my parent's house several times in my twenties and the rules are just part of the package. You need to get your own place.

If you have graduated from college, then how you lived then no longer matters. Its in the past and dwelling on it will only eat at you. If you have not finished school, go back and get your degree. Its not too late. I didn't start college for nine years after high school. I was a little older than you when I went back, but not much. Like you, I had some baggage I was dragging around, but getting through college and then graduate school helped me regain some self esteem. If you want it, you can get it. There are student loans as I'm sure you know.

I'm sorry getting over your relationship is so difficult. Those can be so hard to leave behind. Use what you learned from that relationship, both what you did right and what you did wrong, and go from there.

Get yourself back on your feet anyway you can. The years pass incredibly fast, and you will regret not moving forward if you are still in the same place ten years from now. If you need help through counseling, there is no shame in that. Get yourself a pen and paper. Put down your goals and go one at a time.
You can do it.

Sam2