[Sonne]

My family was dysfunctional and my hometown wasn't even a town but rather a stretch of road. I wanted to get away really badly when I was 15 but 10 years later I'm dying to get back.

My job makes me so depressed I cry almost every day. I have no time to have fun. If I move back home, chances are low that my boyfriend will be able to follow. I'm in the middle of a pre-cervical cancer scare. My weight won't stop climbing. My bf is the only person I have in ny and our work schedules are now opposite. I feel entirely alone and begin thinking of death.

I'm driving 5 hours home today and then jumping straight into an eight hour shift. My "Christmas" with my family lasted 1.5 days.

I think I am going to tell my dad I want to move into the house he is renovating, I think it's my safest bet for survival. I'll miss my boyfriend.

[Clio19]

If you allow me... i would say that first you need to clear your head and be ok so you can make such a big decision... getting away of your social support aka your bf might only make things worst... when we are depressed and going through difficult times it helps a lot to stay next to the one we feel better with... now...i trust you need to get away and if it feels like the right thing then go ahead... but if you're not sure give it a second thought...

if you need someone to talk to... i'm right here