Nowhere to go

I've had depression for ten years now. I've always hoped that graduating from high school would help my mood. But it hasn't. Every job I get I feel like a nobody not worth a second glance. I've never had a true friend my entire life. The only people I even try to talk to are the ones on my video games. I don't even care about my family. I don't think I ever have. My entire life has just been doing what others tell me to do, never smiling, never laughing. I have very few memories with any joy in them. Every time I've tried to reach out to others, they just reject me. I just feel like whatever I do nothing will ever change. I don't know why I'm putting this out there, I guess it's the hope that someone might actually care. I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel so tired and weary.

you sound a lot like where i am at the moment. no where to fit in, no motivations or goals, a family who simply don't care..... only friends online, yeah- a lot like me

i'm sorry you're suffering

Welcome to Psych Central. You will find a lot of people here who care. We have a Depression Forum that you might check out. Post whenever and where ever you wish. Hope you find the support you are looking for here.