I don't drink now through ops for drinking to much, not on an every day basis but a self med routine . Listen to this , when my depression got to the suicide thinking, my mind was so blank that I could drink a ltr of vodka say in 1 hour and still be sober. like has if the depression would not let anything penetrate its grip , I could talk without slurring my words it was just has if I had drank a ltr of water. The next act is what destroyed my guts with pancreitis and should not in any way be tried: eek: I would drink the ltr of vodka in 1 go , tip it straight back from the bottle till empty. This would have a number of effects 1 knock me spark out , 2 numb the depression for a small relief, what they call release from the dead zone for 1 hour, ie the one I am after , and 3 the worst ///vodka and depression having a might battle for control in my head. .I have no fear of physical pain, but depression at that level terrifies me.
Jan 08, 2014, 02:06 PM
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