[DDMeister]

This is my first post on here. I google the way I feel a lot because usually something will come up that let's me know that other people are feeling a lot like me. Anyway, today I stumbled on this site.

Long story short, have struggled with general anxiety and OCD for as king as I can remember and only every now and again will it spiral to a place of down right depression. I think depression has been sneaking in as of lately but right now it's feeling different, something I remember feeling before but it's been years and years.

I feel vulnerable and scared and intimidated by every day things. Like I'm exposed and unprotected and like I just want to curl up under a blanket and have my mom by my side. I've been staying at my parents house because my apartment feels cold and not at all comforting. I also hate my job and this is heightened right now. I cried the other day just at the thought of having to walk back in. It's a hopeless feeling, like the kindness and goodness in everything is gone and only a cold lonely world is left. Every day music brings me down really low.

Furthermore, me being OCD I have a hard time letting go of bad thoughts. In fact, I just let them flourish and grow to where before you know it I'm worried about death and disease and the world ending and.. It's just endless.

Anyway, is anyone familiar with the kind of depression that somehow makes you feel like a scared little vulnerable kid?

Thanks.

[Fuzzybear]

[riksie-dixie]

I honestly say that being depressed, in general, can make you feel scared, vulnerable, and weak. Being depressed allows a lot of negative thoughts to flow into your head, and OCD doesn't help.

[gayleggg]

You are not alone. I have trouble with depression and catastrophic thinking. I'm not OCD but still have obsessive thinking/worrying about everything. The meds I take help but don't completely get rid of it. I have to distract myself with thought stopping techinques like breathing exercizes. The more depressed I am the worse the thougts are.

[regretful]

as those above have said, you are not alone. I'm beginning to think that depression is an insidious affliction that harms more than it does not. As for me, I'm giving medication a try again, and sticking to small victories; for example, today I simply set the small goal of taking down Christmas decorations. It was not much, but I did it. I hope that you can find some comfort in knowing that there is this community of people out there who are struggling like you, and we all wish each other well.

[Trontine]

When I've been most depressed I feel very vulnerable and worthless and like everything is meaningless. I can identify with your co-morbidness. I also have OCD, and while you have generalized anxiety, I have social anxiety.

[KC Steely]

Yes, I've been there. Currently dealing with a lot of stress within my life (due to work, family relationships etc.) So, I can relate. There are no easy answers when it comes dealing with depression. Life can overwhelm the best of us, especially just everyday simple tasks, mainly, because there always seems like way too many tasks to do. If you can develop a hobby to engage in to help take your mind off the things that depress you, I highly recommend it. Another strategy you could try is to declare the next weekend as a "depression free weekend!" Get out an do things you want to do, but haven't. So, for example, if you've never had a massage from a professional massage therapist, schedule and partake in one. It's a way of saying, in an ever so kind way, that you're worth having a pleasant, relaxing moment to yourself. Now, try and put a whole weekend of fun, nice, exciting or relaxing activities together to show yourself some kindness.