[butterfly warrior]

Hello everyone. I am new here and not sure where to start. Um...hello. I am a wife and mother to 3 teens. I have been taking welbutrin for I don't know how long now. I'm not sure if its working anymore. I am going to need to visit my PCP soon. I seem to butt heads with my middle child so much. I feel like a worthless mother and person. I can't seem to do anything right. I just want to lock myself in my room ALL the time. Sometimes I think they would all be better off if I up and left. I feel like I'm falling into this bottomless pit. I feel alone and, well, needy. My self esteem is non existent these days. I'm afraid to tell anyone how I'm feeling. I don't want to feel judged or made to feel even more worthless than I already feel. Can I just sleep the rest of my life...if only I could sleep. What do you all do to feel a little better?

[wa(o)rrior]

hi, welcome to the forum. I can very much understand what you are going thru as am in the same situation. i lock myself in the room and have minimal interaction with my parents. i haven't spoke to any my friends for a few days now. my phone is always in silent mode and i don't answer any calls. i haven't gone out of my house for a few days. i have literally lost interest in everything that once used to be my daily routine.

the only thing which keeps me sane right now is reading novels. though it is difficult to focus on the reading( sometimes i forget the characters who appear initially in the novel and then make a comeback midway). i listen to instrumental music in the background while reading books. i do meditation before going to sleep. i am migrating from my city to a country side, i am planning to get a dog. i watch the sky in the night with all those glittering stars. i always feel better when i connect to the nature. i've made my life more simpler with minimum requirements.
"With expectations comes disappointments" which finally puts you into the bottomless pit. i have started practicing "expecting less".

[Little Lulu]

Butterfly - raising three kids is tough duty for anyone. If you are struggling with one of the kids plus you aren't getting much rest, some hugs, and occasional praise along the way, things start to seem bleak. Anyone bothering to post here about their issues and looking for answers is someone who is trying to do their best. And in actuality, that is all any one of us can do.

[Fuzzybear]