[Smurfette02]

So I don't really know how to deal with my emotions. At the moment I am feeling really sad, sometimes it feels so unbearable that I just want to be able to run away from how I'm feeling. It feels really uncomfortable. Like when you are on a diet and there's some chocolate cake in front of you and you really really REALLY want it and you have to just stare at it, you cant escape it, it's always there and you just have to stare at it and you are struggling to find a way to deal with not wanting it. That's how I feel most of the time with my sadness and depression. It makes me want to scream, shout, curl up in a ball, cry, run until I have escaped this feeling, rip it out of my chest...I just don't know what to do..

Sometimes I'm 'ok' and the feeling is not as bad, it's more bearable. But then inevitably as evening starts to set on the feeling starts to get stronger and most nights it ends up just growing and growing until sometimes it's so bad I almost feel immobilized by it. There is rarely a night when I don't feel this.

Has anyone else ever felt the feeling I am describing?

[justrosie]

I do have allot of the same feelings, as I started a diet today for the million time, but I have no choice but to lose this weight, so I can get my knees replaced, so I do know how you feel, BUT I have to keep in mind, that in the long run, it will be worth it, well in my case. Emotions are tricky, they sneak up on you when you least expect it, that is why there are sites like this one, it's a good place to talk it all out, and get a fresh perspective, so I hope you can bear these emotions we go through, it helps to have a person along side of you, to know the feelings.

[AsterDisaster]

Originally Posted by Smurfette02

So I don't really know how to deal with my emotions. At the moment I am feeling really sad, sometimes it feels so unbearable that I just want to be able to run away from how I'm feeling. It feels really uncomfortable. Like when you are on a diet and there's some chocolate cake in front of you and you really really REALLY want it and you have to just stare at it, you cant escape it, it's always there and you just have to stare at it and you are struggling to find a way to deal with not wanting it. That's how I feel most of the time with my sadness and depression. It makes me want to scream, shout, curl up in a ball, cry, run until I have escaped this feeling, rip it out of my chest...I just don't know what to do..

Sometimes I'm 'ok' and the feeling is not as bad, it's more bearable. But then inevitably as evening starts to set on the feeling starts to get stronger and most nights it ends up just growing and growing until sometimes it's so bad I almost feel immobilized by it. There is rarely a night when I don't feel this.

Has anyone else ever felt the feeling I am describing?

Smurfette, I have those feelings of hopelessness. Wanting to run away is exactly how I would describe it. Just wanting it "all to stop" but it never does. I have just found this group and reading your post helps me know that I am in the right place. Thank you for sharing.

Aster