My Story

I have some time now to get a little more detailed about my life. As I said before I'm a 37 year old single dad. I have a beautiful little girl. She is a very pleasant, kind and artistic child and she keeps me together at the seams.

I have a career that I love. It doesn't always provide enough financially. But, the emotional award makes up for a lot of it.

I have suffered from major depression for the better part of my life. I have tried a ridiculous variety of antidepressants since diagnosed and it's only within the past year that I've been prescribed a drug that works well, with little to no interference with my daily life. However, as much as this drug has been working well; I could still feel that something wasn't right. I still felt very gloomy and just exhausted from the constant effort of life in general. Also, having a child and hiding my sadness and depression is a very exhausting task. I truly believe that children should not be exposed to such things. However, I don't believe in keeping a child in a world of fantasy. I do believe that it's important that they are exposed to various emotions as conditioning for life. For instance, I wouldn't be afraid to cry in front of my child do to a loss, or even a sad moment in a movie for that matter.

Geez, I really hope I'm not boring anyone who may be reading this. It just makes me feel good to get this stuff out.

Just this past autumn I was diagnosed with ADHD and that explains a hell of a lot of my life's experiences. I have had more jobs than I can put on a CV as it would be the size of a short story. That's not completely negative however. Having a variety of experiences has given me some great tools of knowledge for life. For example: I can cook really well, I'm great at fixing things both physically and technologically. A very negative aspect of being diagnosed so late in life is that I didn't do so hot in school. There were some subjects that I was at the top of my class and others that I was failing badly. I skipped a lot of classes. As a matter of fact, I can remember going to straight weeks of skipping school and would've gone longer if I wasn't caught. Thankfully, I did graduate from High School and have a couple of college diplomas under my belt(I am working in neither field however).

So, in the present. I'm suffering from major depression and ADHD as I stated earlier. I'm currently on 300mgs of Wellbutrin XL, 1mg of Ativan (as needed), and just this past week 36mgs of Concerta. I was on 450mgs of Wellbutrin XL for a couple of months. But, that didn't go so well. My psychiatrist believes that it's the ADHD that exasperating my depression as I am feeling quite overwhelmed with life and I'm unable to keep on top of things. It's the whole snowball effect thing.

Anyhoo, I'll leave it at that for now. Thanks for reading my scattered life's story. I will have many more posts as these are just some aspects of my life.

BW76

Thanks for sharing It's good to let all the built up out.

Hello & Welcome, Badwolf76.
Super! So many with depression, etc. are trapped in work that aggravates the depression; yours (potentially) alleviates.

My regrets over the late diagnosis of ADHD. I hope the meds for that do not interfere with your work.

Warm regards to you and your daughter!