Quietly freaking out

I have an appt with my doc today... I'm worried. I'm torn. Part if me feels like I should go off work, try new treatments and focus purely on my "recovery", but I also feel like I have been somewhat surviving/getting by...but part of it I guess is that I'm worried about letting others down. Recently my boss kinda convinced me to take on a student for 8 weeks... Crap I don't know what to do, what to tell her. I'm freaking out! Just needed to vent!

okay this is very familiar..... and I remember what my shrink said to me (or at least close to what she said)....

1) What is the WORST that can happen. Literally - write it out.
2) How likely is that to happen?
3) Have you ever experienced any challenge similar to this before? If so - how did it turn out.

The more you dialetically (?sp) process exactly what your challenge is - the more likely you will see that you can handle it.

Thanks for the feedback.
Back from my appointment.... Things r up in the air.. She did write a consult for ECT & I don't know when I will hear back or how I even feel about this. My heart sank as she told me TMS is a nogo as it likely wouldn't work which I personalized as another was of telling myself how hopeless I am, and that I'll never get better. Feeling vet alone and confused. What a crappy couple of days off this has been! I don't know what to tell my boss about this student situation, as she's a bit of a snake so I don't at all want to be open with her... I don't want yo somehow mess up this students plan/experience. Ahhhhh I donno..

Oh dear.....
Couldn't you just tell her it's a medical issue and you can't do it right now? Personally, I would be unwilling to take on anything additional. It would break me.