from how depressed and desperate and empty I feel right now.

[depressedalaskan]

Sorry you are not feeling well. Wish I could do something to help.

[Viuam]

Hi.. take a warm bath, some chammomile tea, bach flower remedies work sometimes... I get that twisting feeling in my chest when things get really bad too... Ive had it for a couple of days this time around. I have a prescription for lexotanil which helps big time, maybe you could talk to your T about something similar. Lexotanil is super addictive though, so I'd reccomend having a long conversation about meds beforehand. For me its a sign of extreme tension, sometimes you need to do whatever works to calm things down a bit. It wont make everything better, but at least you can breathe.

Sometimes I sit in the shower and let the warm water just run over me and get completely lost in the warmth. No thoughts at all, its a very primal feeling, like being in the womb or something. That might help a little as well.

[Viuam]

I've been thinking about this for a few days... My chest feels really tight all the time, and when that happens I usually stop eating as well. Not because I have an eating disorder per se, just because I feel no hunger, I can't bring myself to swallow food. Does that happen to any of you? I have several methods of calming things down, as you can see in the above post. The best is obviously the drugs, but I'm trying to avoid becoming hooked so I only take what I need before going to bed.

[bookmadness]

Dear Nevergoodenough--

You are enough. (The "enough" things is something I have to remind myself, though I don't know that I'll ever quite feel it.) I am sorry that you are feeling so desperate and depressed right now. Is there anything that has helped you before? Binge watching a show on Netflix and focusing on a character's issues (not that I am saying this is better than a walk, but I've been trying to get out for a walk for years...a show where I can turn my attention to something/one else? I can do that. )
Reading rom-com or sci-fi? I'm not talking War and Peace here, but just a few pages at a time...Maybe even just doodling on a piece of paper?
Of course, just taking things an hour at a time to make it through the day however you can is progress.
Thinking of you--
bookmadness