I feel broken. Dead inside. I'm trying so hard not to cry, because I'm at school. My ex-best friend told me I have too many pity parties. So I will stay strong in front of her. She won't talk to me unless I ask a question, and she's already replaced me. Every day I have to hide the scars and fresh cuts on my arms. It hurts to not have anyone that cares. I'm wallowing and self-pity and it makes me hate myself even more.

[mulan]

Hey! Here people does care, you're not alone. I'm sorry for your best friends. Hughs

[Hellion]

Sorry you're feeling that way, to be honest I am feeling pretty useless myself but due to different circumstances. It doesn't sound like ex best friend was a true friend, since in my opinion true friends don't abandon you because you're having a hard time.

Can you potentially talk to your parents? or is there a school counseler?(though sometimes they aren't really that much help) but yeah it sounds like you need some kind of help and support.

You are feeling..... "me"????

[gayleggg]

It's called depression not self-pity and plenty of us here have the same problems. Glad you found PC, it is safe to talk here and there is lots of support.

[Frankbtl]

Hi, well I'd say that it was really good that your friend is your ex-friend!! You really shouldn't be made to feel/or feel bad about letting out how you feel.
And perhaps see it as a good thing that she's replaced you, you're way better off without her by the sounds of it. So no more asking her questions hey?!!
Just give it a little time and allow yourself to make friends who are really going to care about you.
Now you're not "wallowing in self-pity" you're hurting, yes?!! So, we care, do you want to talk a bit more about it, we're here for you if/whenever you do.
Alison

It especially hurts because we were best friends since we were 5 and she told me her view of me would never change and she'd always be there for me. It hurts that some one could lie to you your whole life.

[Frankbtl]

You know it can be so easy to say that you/you'll care.....you'll be there for someone.......you understand,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,(and mean it!) but when something/s come up meaning you really have to "put it out there", some people just can't do that.
And it is good that you've found that out now (if that's the case). You really need people in your life who will actually care, be there, understand when it actually really matters. You deserve more!!
But she "fulfilled a purpose" in your life at the time which was fine/great (and take heart from that- it wasn't all bad!!) although now things are changing for you (along with growing up?) so now maybe it's now time to move on and find friends who are more in it for the "long haul" just the same as you would be for them.
Alison

[sprinterchic13]

Originally Posted by Kayaychoh

I feel broken. Dead inside. I'm trying so hard not to cry, because I'm at school. My ex-best friend told me I have too many pity parties. So I will stay strong in front of her. She won't talk to me unless I ask a question, and she's already replaced me. Every day I have to hide the scars and fresh cuts on my arms. It hurts to not have anyone that cares. I'm wallowing and self-pity and it makes me hate myself even more.

Hey, people here care, I do care. Because i have been through a lot and still am. I am here for you if you ever need someone to talk to

[SeekerOfLife]

Originally Posted by Kayaychoh

I feel broken. Dead inside. I'm trying so hard not to cry, because I'm at school. My ex-best friend told me I have too many pity parties. So I will stay strong in front of her. She won't talk to me unless I ask a question, and she's already replaced me. Every day I have to hide the scars and fresh cuts on my arms. It hurts to not have anyone that cares. I'm wallowing and self-pity and it makes me hate myself even more.

There is not one thing wrong with crying when you are hurt. Perhaps you are better off without your non-sympathetic "friend". Sound like you are depressed. To me depression feels like I am being sucked down a hole that I do not know how to get out of. Are you in therapy? It has been a great blessing to me. I am sure that under all the hurt you are feeling there is an awesome person underneath.

[Fuzzybear]