[paynful]

I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired!! Severe depression feels like a roller coaster that I never knew I got in line for... I go to the carnival for the fried food, not the rides! I find myself wishing for a "Final Destination" moment.

I don't know why, but ...I like weird, I love random and I hate surprises. Go figure.

Most people find my morbid sense of humor distrubing. However, it can be the only thing that makes me crack a smile. I find myself giggling at these macabre thoughts. People ask, "What's so funny?" I just have to say, "You don't want to know."

Chocolate makes me content.
Naming my uncoordinated cat Grace (I just end up calling her Kitty though), makes me smile.
Coffee is a reason to get out of bed (for a little while).
Re-reading my favorite book once or twice a year makes me feel comforted (From the Corner of His Eye by Dean Koontz).

All these little things don't change my world or make my depression go away, but they do break up my day just enough to get through it.

Call it curiousity or needing to expand my own bag of little tricks, but I wonder what works for other people.

What random little things help you smile when nothing else could or should?

[happytulips]

You and me both paynful! I am sick and tired of this crazy roller coaster ride that I am also on. I want off now! I'm so glad you have things to focus on that make you feel better, we all need that. It sounds like even though you suffer from depression, you have developed ways to preserve your sanity. Chocolate. Now, I'm right there with you on that one. The creamier the better. Nothing makes you feel better quicker, than chocolate. Love the name "Grace" for your uncoordinated cat, though I must say, I've never met an uncoordinated feline..;-) Coffee..how can one live their life without it? And reading...always a good go to. Self-Help and Non-fiction for me. All I have to do is look into my precious children's eyes and listen to the sweet sound of their giggles and laughs, and am reminded how special life truly is. All I have to do is get a warm hug and most times it's enough to lift the heavy veil of depression, if even just for a little while. My kids keep me going. I know they depend on me.

For me it's not even a roller coaster. Just a terrible crappy merrygoround with no idea how I got there and how I get off haha. I like to eat chocolate (aw YAS), read, watch my favorite movies (Lilo&Stitch, Matilda, Miss Congeniality, Legally Blonde, etc), world and character building for stories I want to write, I draw and paint if I can, and sometimes I just really like to take a break with video games there are plenty of great things to do if you can bring yourself to do it :P (as I lay in bed unmoving lol)

I feel this way. Sometimes I think I just can't stand it for another minute! A couple of times, I've acted on the thought. Our dog makes me smile & feel warm inside especially when he unexpectedly does something cute. When he's being cantankerous (which isn't often) I call HIM Skeezyks! Every so often I'll see something on the internet that just tickles me. And, once in a while I'll see some scene outside, such as a particularly lovely sky, that will give me a momentary sense of peace.

[Akua]

My garden makes me smile...as bad as it gets, my plants still grow. It's something I can take care of, I wish it was easy as that.