[elevatedsoul]

lately i've been feeling strange, or out of place?
i feel like i don't know what to do and maybe a sense of boredom? i cant focus on the things that i try to do and have only been able to watch tv somewhat...
why could i be feeling so disconnected from myself and unable to occupy my time?

[elevatedsoul]

i even have difficulty playing video games that i used to consider my favorite activity..?

[Slamjammer]

You are just bored. You need to have an adventure...a change of scenery. Go someplace, do something. Be spontaneous, don't "over-plan" it. Just pack your bags, jump in the car and go. Your subconscious will direct you.

[elevatedsoul]

i try to but it always ends the same, either with panic attack or just more depression because i cant seem to get anything done much less an enjoyable activity i guess its just the depression kicking me in the butt for not giving into my addictions..

[saw_q]

well bro,
just relax a while. make new setup. and go on with new step. maybe be you need some rest.

[elevatedsoul]

i agree saw_q, i have been trying to relax but it seems the more i try the more ... shame(?) or guilt(?) i feel...

i know i could use some rest, nightmares everynight keep me from getting deep sleep so that probably doesnt help with these feelings i've been having... just feels empty, scary... lonely...

i worry alot, but have been trying to just say its ok to not think about those things and give myself a little break but my mind doesnt seem to agree

[elevatedsoul]

it feels like i am not able to gain any pleasure from any activity, like i've obsessed over everything that is available to the point of running out of things to "obsess" over? is this the depression...? it feels different this time...