[StarsMoonSky]

it's so weird that people say talking helps to cope with depression, actually it makes my depressive episode worse. i fell heavily tired after talking. i like being alone so i can remain calm away from things that might irritate me. i'm heavily depressed. i've been depressed for long time but this is the worst episode i've experienced. i'm only 20

Oh yeah. After meeting with my therapist I'm just completely and utterly emotionally drained most of the time. Ready to crawl back into bed and sleep haha. But I believe it really depends on the person. If you have a lot of things in your past it might be best to unravel those knots before moving forward. But also, if you have resolved a lot of it then there really is no real need to go digging up the past--it's not really fun. I try to go treat myself to something nice after therapy since it's best for me to get my mind off it as fast as possible. Then again I have my most intelligent thoughts when I'm talking to people so me thinking about the past by myself has no upside.

I'm 20 too and I hit my worst about a year ago. I find it helpful to be with people but we're different so I really do encourage you to be alone if it calms you.