[GenCat]

I have a monster that tells me to just end it all. I attempted overdose yesterday. I complied to its evil ways. Take me I said, I am so weak, so wishing I was dead.

sounds like it is time to take the monster (and yourself) to the hospital

[paynful]

I am sorry for your suffering, but I'm glad that you are here today. Tell that monster where to go!! And, please, get help when, where and however you need it.

I'm in agreement with....let's just call him UM.....

Please, right now, call your doctor or go to the hospital.
I feel as if you need to let someone else take charge for a while....a hiatus if you will.

If it helps, please keep talking to us when you can....

You slipped. I, for one, am glad you didn't fall.

[GenCat]

I went to the hospital before and it terrified me and I refuse to tell anyone who can put me back in there that I tried overdosing.

Understood....

PM if you like. All I can do is listen but I, at least, have that capability.

[Stronger]

The first time I tried overdosing many years ago, I didn't tell anyone until two weeks later. Absolutely no one knew that I was even having a hard time. Told my sister. She didn't make me go to the hospital. But several months later I went voluntarily for other reasons.
Been an inpatient four times. But that only means I'm four times stronger than I was that first time I tried to end it all.
The real question you have to ask yourself is, "Can I trust myself?". If the answer is no, then please go. The last time I went I knew the answer to that question but still didn't speak up, which is why I had to go. I made a dumb decision that I still regret.
You are more valuable than you will ever realize!
You can always PM me also. I'm still here today to offer you that.
And I mean it.

Hi all.
My previous post here sounded wrong.

My meaning was that listening is all I know how to do.....

It may have come across not quite the way I intended....Apologies to the OP and to every one who reads this