[Whoaminoone]

I've been trying to psych myself up for days to clean house. It's still a disaster. I've picked up a thing here or there, and even put a couple loads of clothes in the washer. I just have no energy or motivation. Why do even the simplest tasks have to feel so overwhelming?
I've noticed frequent stories on the news lately with a certain commonality. Florida woman drives vehicle into ocean with kids. Oklahoma woman commits murder/suicide - carbon monoxide from running vehicle in closed garage; 3 yr old daughter died, mom died, 5yo son was rescued. I can't explain how this makes me feel. On one hand, I wish they could have gotten help before their situations reached that point. On the other hand...I envy them for getting out by whatever means necessary. How messed up does that make me?
Well, I guess I need to try to do something.

[ToeJam]

Not sure if it helps, but do things in little bursts. I tend to set a timer on for say 10 minutes (or a short play list of songs covering this time) and just... do it. You'll be surprised how much you can get done in such a short time... and it will helps things become a little more manageable.

Yes, I have a similar problem. Personally, I can spend all day every day on the computer. But clean house? Forget it! I cook sometimes & do laundry & ironing. But there's something about housecleaning... I used to be pretty good at it. But no more!

[paynful]

I have to say that I've taken a hiatus from watching the news. I find that the main stream media to be biased and very depressing. I'm depressed enough as it is, thank you very much. I find my news from other sources if need be. But for now, I like my little bubble intact.

While I do not envy those families you talk of (AT ALL), I do have dark thoughts. In my mental state, it would be abnormal not to have them. But I would force myself to talk to someone, if I thought I was going to act on them. I hope you would do the same.

I hate cleaning. Truly. Especially when it's not my mess, and I know it's just going to show up again tomorrow. But it has to get done otherwise I start to get itchy and twitchy.

So.. if I'm watching TV, I clean for the few minutes of commericals.
If I'm making Tea, I clean for however long it takes for the water to boil. Short little bursts throughout the day...

[regretful]

Cleaning...I let so much go because of this depression. When I was employed full time, I found a way to get things done. The conundrum of this illness is that I spend so much time sitting around thinking about all the bad that nothing gets done. Dishes are done, but after that, I'm just about spent. I hate what this illness is doing to me and how it is starting to rip my family apart...