I have a message for you

Hello,

I wish i could come here more often just to say do not give up. You never know your story might inspire someone one day. I have been depressed since November 2013. I went to counseling ever since that time. Psychotherapy helped me and saved my life, but i needed more medical help because i can't get better physically. I started having chest pain everyday, so i went to the doctor to get medical help. Imagine the feeling of having a heart attack everyday, but i'm only 20. My depression taught me a lot of things. I do not want to focus on telling you how bad my depression was the last four months. I want to tell you what helped me, maybe it might help you too.

First of all, if i see one depressed person, i make sure that person at least gets support. I isolated myself for three months. I lost all my friends. I started meeting with a christian group every week. I began meeting new people and listening to their testimonies about depression. I did not have to say anything, i just listened. I tried to make new friends. It took me so long to find the right friends. For instance, i told a new friend about my depression, and she began asking me to go running with her. She knocked on my door to get me eat dinner with her. She pulled me out of my room.

I also watched TED talks on YouTube. There are different kinds of presentations there to get me busy and learn new things. I began writing journals every day, and thinking about projects to help people. I started thinking about reasons to live, to not give up. Even though some people can make your life miserable, there are many people out there who care about you, but you might not know that. So keep going. It is painful, but keep going. And remember, do something, help someone, and you will know what life is about. This life is all about giving, helping, caring/ loving. I'd rather be remembered for these things after i die, than being remembered for being depressed.

Thanks for sharing.

Thanks Stars - you are inspiring.

Thanks for your post! Sometimes it is hard to remember there is light at the end of the tunnel...