[sadgirlhere]

I am depressed.
I need dental work done and I hate my teeth.
I need to lose weight.
My anxiety disorder keeps me from functioning normally.
I dont drive. I am too afraid at times to do things like leave house.
Im always second guessing or doubting myself.
My relationship is a mess and on the fritz and at times I can tell I get on his nerves.
My sister is getting married and im not the maid of honor. Shes also completely oppositeof me. Social. Skinny. Pretty and a go getter.
While im struggling to get back to skinny and be fun and normal.
people love her and to be around her. Im a person who is shy and not brave and "a victim" since im usually the door mat and shesthe person walking in the door full happy life.
I dont talk to anyone about.how I deel. Wish I didmt feel this way. Elbarrassed that I do.
Just want to be better.

[Rohag]

Hello again, Sadgirlhere.

Depression and anxiety together make life exceptionally challenging.

Originally Posted by sadgirlhere

My relationship is a mess...

Earlier you mentioned your husband has trouble with alcohol. That must add to your struggles.

People - family - constantly deriding you creates a poor emotional environment in which to advance toward goals. Any way you can build stronger "barriers" against your detractors?

Wishing you successes, even if they are small.

[Maria38Divine]

Sadgirl,

I feel your pain. But can I tell you that "skinny" is overrated. I've been skinny, like model skinny, like praying-for-hips skinny, like rejected-by-my-ex-for-being-too-skinny (although I was normal weight). I've also been plump several times in my life. So I know how it feels to be either and how uncomfortable it can be either way. But at the end of the day, I'm still me, regardless of the packaging. Like you, I wish I weren't so shy and overlooked (...and I'm slim . . .but with hips). But timidity can be fixed. We just need to keep working at it.

Remember, you are unique and lovely. If you allow that affirmation to guide your thoughts, it will eventually show on the outside, and genuine folks will value that much more than anything. For those who are caught up with physical appearance, I dismiss them, don't have time for them, don't want them poisoning my brain (which is already mega fragile) with their shallow thinking.

[Jolisse]

Hello Sadgirl,
Are you seeing a doctor for your anxiety?