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I am waiting for my job teaching English abroad to begin in October, and to be honest, I don't foresee myself returning home ever, certainly not to live with my parents. I wouldn't go back to the States unless I find a nice girl and a nice job or something in the long run, but whatever fate has in store for me will take care of itself. So I'm not concerned about the future, at least not entirely, so much as I am the present.

The problem is, while I'm waiting there's simply no work in my home city that's above 10 an hour, and most of it I would hate. I utterly despise the idea of taking on a retail/stupid job for not a lot of money that I KNOW I'm going to hate because I've done it before.

So I'm essentially killing time until October starts, much to my parents dismay and to my boredom. I try to keep myself occupied by reading/whatever else, but I know I'm in a mental box and I want to get the heck out of this dead end town. I dream to travel, but I have little money. Any ideas?

I would take any job. Yes, it's dull, but it's not permanent and you will need some money when you first get there.

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Originally Posted by sophiesmom

I would take any job. Yes, it's dull, but it's not permanent and you will need some money when you first get there.

I have start up costs. Yes, extra money would help, but I'm of the sort who would rather do nothing (even live on the street) than work a job I hate. It's more than just dull, I would just genuinely dislike what I'm doing.

I also feel sad because I wonder if I'm being stubborn by questioning the free will we should all be in theory born with. I feel sorry for all the people who don't have the right to choose, and wonder how they can be happy doing what they dislike.

So, I'm thinking, should I travel locally anyway? It would eat into my savings a bit, but not TOO much, and it would truly clear my head. Not likely I'll gain the motivation to get a job here anyway, most likely would just stay at home and "rot".

I wish I had gotten a job last winter, but I was so depressed from seasonal affective disorder, now I'm just antsy, tired, and raring to get out of here.