I'm not actually alive - I'm dead. I know I am. I'm not supposed to be walking around because I don't live anymore. It's all a big hole inside me. Then I lay my hand on my heart and I feel it beating and it totally freaks me out, because it's not supposed to, because I'm dead.

Anyone recognize this?

[CantExplain]

I felt more like a zombie. A living body but a dead soul.

[Fuzzybear]

[mulan]

I feal dead too, I don't understand why others move go around, talk, want things, have things to say, I'm a body who is there without any kind of soul. With any kind of live, besides than fealing dead, I feel that I never existed before, and that life don't happens.
In the other day I was called to eat dinner, I heard them talking in the kitchen, and the image of a person looking lake me taking my place and talking with them appears in my mind. It felt good. I didn't mind if someone replace me, because I'm just a body.

[yumi]

I think I'm the opposite when it comes to how the soul feels. I do feel broken in spirit, yes.....but, I feel like my mind and my body are dead, but my soul is very much alive and yearns to break free from this useless, diseased vessel of a body I am stuck with.
I feel like I would make an amazingly beautiful Angel when I am free of the chains my earthly body is cursed with. Free to do the things that are in my heart to do and not interrupted by the scarred mind anymore. I will never understand my mind I'm ready to be free, but so far God has not answered that prayer and I keep waking up to a new day confined still. Imprisoned. I feel my soul knocking to get out all the time.

[pegasus]

That's a horrible feeling.

[Idiot17]

I recognize that.
(((((((breadfish)))))))

[TheOriginalMe]

I feel that I am already in Hell, that I am being punished and I wonder what I did in the other life that I have no recollection of. If I could remember what I did then I could truly die but until then I am half dead and half alive.

I have often thought that perhaps I was supposed to have died years ago. But, somehow I eluded the grim reaper. And so, since then, I have been left lingering in some state where I'm physically alive, but I exist outside of the normal laws that govern peoples' lives... sort of a living zombie, I guess...

All of this sounds so familiar to me. Apparently, the thoughts and feelings about death, feeling dead, should have died described on this thread are, indeed...depression At least we all know we're not alone.

[Withered-Rose79]

Thank you for this. I thought I was alone in feeling this way.

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[Viuam]

I feel the opposite in a way... My body is like a robot, it does things needed to survive, but it's not really a part of me. My mind however, is racing through a million things, most of them angry and obsessive. Feelings of loneliness (the ultimate forever alone), jealousy, self hatred, etc, etc. sleep is great because my mind just stops and I'm at peace. I've discovered a lovely little pill called sedival, which is over the counter, and if I take about 4 I'm good to go for the evening. Since I don't see my psychiatrist anymore I'm out of lexotanil, and lexapro did jack **** this time round so I stopped. Got no withdrawal symptoms btw, feel equally terrible as before. So I guess that my body is dead, but my mind is very much alive and beating the **** out of me.

[16216398]

I feel lost in my thoughts. I feel like I can't trust myself with my own feelings. Does anyone else feel lost in their own thoughts?

Originally Posted by 16216398

I feel lost in my thoughts. I feel like I can't trust myself with my own feelings. Does anyone else feel lost in their own thoughts?

Oh yes, I feel that too. I feel lost in my whole mind. Most of the time I also feel dead inside completely, totally empty. Some days my mind just runs through recurring thoughts of stuff I screwed up in the last few years, over and over, for hours, like an endless looped recording .