[phillygirl]

I'm not even sure how to describe this one. But since I've started on the wellbutrin/therapy a few months back, I can tell a noticeable difference in how I feel lately. It's so weird to actually feel 'good' sometimes. I haven't had a panic attack since that last one I had here on the board about a misdiagnosis (which was an error anyway). And I'm really scared of the crash. Every time before now, I can feel good for a little while and inevitably something will come crash my world back down. I want to think this time is different. And it is in a big way because I've never done anything concrete to help myself before. And while for awhile, it felt like I was pretending, making myself think I was doing better. But I really am right now, I can see it and close friends have commented. So while I really like being ok, I'm scared about a possible crash.

Anyone know this feeling? Does the crash always come? Or maybe I really am (finally!!!) doing something right for myself? I dunno, I'm probably worrying about nothing but it does worry me some.

[Boopers]

The thing to do is don't think about what could happen but what IS happening!! Good for you!! I am really glad that you are doing better. Keep thinking positive and keep going out with friends. It will make a difference!!
I, too, am on Wellbutrin and have been for several years. It's a great med for depression. Because I have severe depression, they also put me on prozac and with the two combined, it's so much better.
I am really happy for you that you actually have times where you feel good. I hope it continues for you!!
Good Luck,
Linda

I had initially had REALLY good feelings when going on AD's (found out later that they were hypomania because I was misdiagnosed with unipolar instead of bipolar). This would last about 6-8 weeks, then I would crash & the doc (was going to a GP at the time--not a good idea-- go to a specialist) would increase the dosage until it got too high & then he'd change me to another AD & pattern would repeat itself.

When I was finally diagnosed with bp 1 (my mother had it--that should have been a clue) I was put on Lithium & I couldn't believe how calm & good I felt. I was afraid it would go away, too, but though I had to get off Lithium due to kidney problems I've been doing well (most of the time) on a combo of meds for bp.

Just watch if this pattern happens to you. If so you might want to bring up the question about bp. But if this is the right med for you & you remain stable & optimistic, I'm really happy for you. I know how awful those crashes can be.--Suzy

i'm in a situation now where i'm beginning to think that i'm onto something. i may be better. but am i? dare i hope? dare i pray?

i know exactly how you feel......let's just ride through this together and see how far down the road we get. i think it's a good idea to stay positive about it.........

pat