[hardknocklife4me]

I struggle daily with depression got diagnosed with it as I was exiting the marine corps...fast forward I've been on Prozac, Effexor , Wellbutrin and all of them just made me sleep, been through the dosage wars. All to still be struggling with it. My oldest brother has been on more meds than me and no change. But we come from a seriously negative family environment. Where our parents are negative. My dad either calls us dumb or crazy and that's all his kids minus his daughter. No matter what we do, we're stupid or crazy. Dads a mechanic (ret) and we all have had to go to the man with automotive questions for him to tell us we don't know what we are talking about. And a mother who sides with him when she needs money and mind you my parents have been divorced for 12 years.

I left for the marine corps to escape this. I try to keep my distance and they still send message through my siblings as to how stupid I am for my latest venture. Basically I bought a lemon of a car and to make matters worse I work with one of my brothers who's telling coworkers mine and our family issues. I fight daily with depression and to come to work and be scrutinized and then when my family gets near, no wonder I'm a wreck. I try not to rely on them or anyone because I don't want to burden people. But I face life alone and battle trying to keep my head up and guys it's hard!!! I tell people how I feel and to them depression is nothing it's all mental. Sometimes I take to the bottle of tequila just to feel at peace

[LaborIntensive]

Drinking is not an answer but it is a coping mechanism I suppose.

New Job? Can you move? Need tips on building a superior presence for a new job? I can help you. Depression is my issue to and then some. But, ya gotta channel that energy into something at some point. No one is stupid or crazy unless they believe it. You are only as good or strong as you make yourself. I never went to college and applied 5 times a day for 2 years until I got a government job. As a marine you can qualify where I can't and get a very good job at usajobs.gov. All you need is courage, patience and fortitude to do this.

Let me know.

[Altered Moment]

No they don't. You have to be careful who you share with. There are people who understand and won't judge.

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[Maria38Divine]

Hardknocks,

I totally understand. I grew up in a negative environment too. My mother used to call me "devil's child". I remember her grabbing me by my hair from off my bed when I was a teenager. She accused me of trying to run away because some psychic had told her I was planning to.

I respect my parents for ensuring we had a good education and for teaching us manners, and am very protective of them. Secretly, I think they also suffer with emotional issues. Based on the stuff they've shared with me since I moved out years ago, I suspect it's from their own childhood. They couldn't give me what they didn't have. I'm more understanding towards them now, but I'm glad we're not under the same roof

Are you able to move out, find another job? I don't think all the stress you're going through is doing your mental health any good.

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by LaborIntensive

Drinking is not an answer but it is a coping mechanism I suppose.

New Job? Can you move? Need tips on building a superior presence for a new job? I can help you. Depression is my issue to and then some. But, ya gotta channel that energy into something at some point. No one is stupid or crazy unless they believe it. You are only as good or strong as you make yourself. I never went to college and applied 5 times a day for 2 years until I got a government job. As a marine you can qualify where I can't and get a very good job at usajobs.gov. All you need is courage, patience and fortitude to do this.

Let me know.

At work now my friend but we must talk soon

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by zinco14532323

No they don't. You have to be careful who you share with. There are people who understand and won't judge.

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It's hard for me as of late finding genuine people as some one pointed out I'm bad at making friends

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by Maria38Divine

Hardknocks,

I totally understand. I grew up in a negative environment too. My mother used to call me "devil's child". I remember her grabbing me by my hair from off my bed when I was a teenager. She accused me of trying to run away because some psychic had told her I was planning to.

I respect my parents for ensuring we had a good education and for teaching us manners, and am very protective of them. Secretly, I think they also suffer with emotional issues. Based on the stuff they've shared with me since I moved out years ago, I suspect it's from their own childhood. They couldn't give me what they didn't have. I'm more understanding towards them now, but I'm glad we're not under the same roof

Are you able to move out, find another job? I don't think all the stress you're going through is doing your mental health any good.

Sad part I haven't lived with or near my parents in years so one would think I shouldn't be dealing with their negativity but I stay a distance from them and don't call much or go around but when I do they make up for what they haven't said towards or about me. My upbringing has a lot to do with how I feel. I've gotten family that doesn't believe in me or cares and I run into "friends" that's don't either more so caring what I can do for them

[Fuzzybear]

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Thank you