Well, it's that time of year. Springtime is here and it's getting warmer. I should be happy like lots of other people because of the season. But I'm not. In fact, I feel just the opposite.

Mostly because the season reminds me of the bad things that have happened and tragedies. Also I had received, in the past, bad news from the doctors for me. It seems like all of the bad things that have happened to me were in the spring.

Plus I don't like the long daylight, getting warm, brightness of the sun, and having windows open with noises that I would rather not hear. Also going to the pool area at where I live have lots of kids at that time.

So that's why I get depressed this time of year. I miss the winter months when it would nice and crisp and serein.

[Idiot17]

i find springtime more depressing as well, probably since i see everyone happy and getting ready for a fun summer.

[Frankbtl]

Hi will19, really sorry you're feeling this way. I know springtime can be feel bad anyway, with some days seeming endless, but with the triggers there to memories it must be pretty hard for you.
But maybe try to see this just a little as a new/different springtime instead of "yet another!" springtime?? And it's a sign that you've made it a whole year from the last one.....two....(?).
You have moved on a whole year, it might not feel like it when the memories come back, but in that time you've maybe managed to let go just that tiny, tiny bit, just a little more distance from......???
So this springtime can be a marker as to this year becoming more your year. Try to make time to do some things that might make you feel better about/in yourself. Even if those are just small things just keep on trying to do them as the days go by.
And make sure you have some "escape" time from the longer days, the "noises" e.g. in the later evening light or not shut the curtains/blinds, shut the windows if you have a fan, try and sometimes avoid more crowded places, wear headphones when you're out sometimes to cut down on the "chaos", make trips out a little shorter if you can............
And talk to us!!
If you want to talk about some of the things you've been through/the memories as well, in your own time, maybe we could support you a bit with those too???
Alison

[Clara22]

Do you like reading? The only thing of Springtime I truly enjoy is reading under the sun. It helps with my depression. I used to go to a Starbucks (outside table) with a book and enjoy myself. I missed that here where I live now (by the way it is Fall here)

Originally Posted by Idiot17

i find springtime more depressing as well, probably since i see everyone happy and getting ready for a fun summer.

I agree with you. It really sucks to see everyone so fired up about spring when I could really care less. I liked winter better because then I had a good excuse to hole up inside and didn't feel pressured to have so much fun enjoying the good weather. I know it sounds weird, but that's what this depression has done to me.

[regretful]

Originally Posted by newgal2

I agree with you. It really sucks to see everyone so fired up about spring when I could really care less. I liked winter better because then I had a good excuse to hole up inside and didn't feel pressured to have so much fun enjoying the good weather. I know it sounds weird, but that's what this depression has done to me.

Not weird at all to me...when I am depressed, I'm first angry at others for not being depressed, then angry at myself for "catching" this horrible affliction.

[Altered Moment]

Dang I thought i was the only one. For many many years even on meds and in therapy my depression has been triggered by the change from spring to summer in CA. In CA this is like in April or May. The first week it started getting hot it would trigger a depression. For me it was never situaltional just biological seasonal trigger. When it happens I hate the sun and spring fever and all the lawn mowers and happy people. I close all the blinds and crank up the AC. Last year i was in a bad one all winter and spring, didn't snap out of it until June in Michigan. When it got nice my parents thought for sure that if I would get out on the deck and stuff I would get better. I had to tell them that at the time all I wanted to do was hide from the sun. My dad couldn't believe it because he kind of gets SADS about February in Michigan. The worst month in a long cold winter. When spring comes he is out shoveling snow from the snow bank into the driveway to make it melt faster. After shoveling the snow off the driveway all winter. He crazy. He will do anything to be out in the nice weather. Thank god my parents are so supportive anyway.

This spring is different. After a long depressed fall and winter my new meds are kicking in and I am actually starting to want to get out there.

[TheOriginalMe]

I've had more depressions starting in spring/summer than in autumn/winter. Usually it is the clock changeover that does it for me, just that one hour completely throws me off course. This year we've had a mild winter and the depression hit back in february, last year the winter was late and spring was cold and snowy the depression didn't hit until June.

September is usually my best month.