I feel so fake?

Hey all.
So lately I've been thinking how I just don't really know who I am. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize myself (a guy by the way). I've always liked working out and I thought it was a good thing, but, I feel so fake because I look like a big masculine meathead and feel like an emo 15 year old girl (I'm 18). I am way more emotional and eccentric than most guys who are so serious but in a cool way. I've been told how weird I am my entire life. I'm that weirdo who is thinking about unicorns when he's surrounded by a group of guys talking about sex. I just want to be more normal...i hate my personality.
I also feel fake because of how much i hate my life. I'm in school for physical therapy...but i dont even care about physical therapy. I work two jobs and go to school full time and I dread everything I have to do every morning.

Thanks for listening! any advice?

Hi Merchupacorn!, I'd say that just being "normal" can sometimes be way more fake than some of the things you're telling us. At least some of the guys who are "serious in a cool way" are going to have things they struggle with, may not be obvious, ay not talk about them, but chances are they will.
But it is so much "cooler" that you are just being yourself, with the "emotional" (sensitivity?), eccentricity, unicorns.........Now that is NOT weird, it may be different than some other people, but different can be "streets ahead" of "normal". Different can be outstanding!!! And believe me, there will be people who appreciate/value you just for being you!!
And sure you can still work out if you enjoy it, but you can still be who you are inside too. No "right"'s, no "wrong"'s, forget stereotypes, afterall how damaging are they anyway??!!
So do not sell yourself short by just "following the masses" and losing who you are. It matters!!
Anyone who identifies you as weird or a "weirdo" is just missing out on so much of what you're about.
As for your life, well that's OK, you still have the control to create your own path, a path you want to be on. Perhaps have a real think about how you ended up in physical therapy, and the directions it can lead you in when you complete it. You may be surprised, but if you decide it really isn't for you then there is lots more out there you could be doing.
You are only young, you've got plenty of time to decide on something you really want to/could do, and do it!!
If you want to talk some more though............
Alison

In my experience there is no such thing as normal. I am 29 but I remember feeling like I didn't belong when I was a teenager. My interests were different from those of the people around me, I had depression and I had come from an abusive home. I tried out so many different identities in order to fit in. Eventually I allowed myself to be me weird quirks and all. I am a geek and I wear the label proudly and I have found people that may not always share my i terest but listen with interest when I talk. And I love their company as well.

I don't want to moralize, I just want to give you hope. It will get better. There is nothing worng with who you are and what you are interested in.