[waterknob1234]

This has been a strange week. I dreaded going to work Monday. I worked my usual 12 hours a day. I was exhausted when I went home. At one point this week I had suicidal thoughts. I brushed them out of my head telling myself I could not do this to my children, my dog, God wouldn't like it. I am on an anti-depressant, Citalopram. On Wednesday I had an appointment with my primary doctor. I told him I probably needed to be admitted to a mental hospital and he told me I didn't. He told me I needed to find a less stressful job and he prescribed buspar to take in addition to the citalopram. A miracle happened at work and I finally got some temporary help with my excess paperwork. Friday we were allowed to take off early. I went home and spent 3 hours in prayer, meditating on Jesus' passion being it was Good Friday. I felt a peace in my spirit I haven't known in months. Depression is like a black hole and maybe soon I will be out of it. I think prayer helps. Sorry to ramble, just wanted to talk to folks who understand.

[Rohag]

Hello, Waterknob1234. Earlier you wrote:

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

...most of my depression is related to stress at work as I am expected to do the work of five people and get it all done in an 8 hour day. I get bullied and harassed but they don't fire me.

It's great you are getting some temporary help. Do you feel the situation has turned a corner at work?

[waterknob1234]

Thanks for responding. It's too early to see if there will be permanent improvements at work. I have my resume put together to seek another job, but I haven't had time yet to look for another job. I am grateful for any positives. I think spending more prayer time with God may be helpful too. I am so thankful for all the positive support at pc.

[Curupira]

I am so glad you made it through the week. Mine has been rough as well. I hope next week is better.