[Truthseeker14]

I realize that I do it. I put thoughts and feelings into my friends' heads that aren't there. I think it's because I get so easily irritated with others that I always assume others feel the same toward me. But I can feel myself ruining the friendships that I have now, just as I have several times in the past. It's almost like I'm trying to isolate myself by projecting my negativity onto others. One of my friends has lashed out at me a few times, telling me to stop talking to her condescendingly and to stop being so critical of her.

I don't know whether I'm just meant to be more of a loner, these friends aren't the right friends for me, or my depression has taken over in my relationships. I just often feel out of control concerning how I treat them. And little things like how they're always on their phones and how much they care about how they look... it's just so tedious and boring.

When I talk to my friends about how I'm feeling (which is usually only when I feel desperate), they're always supportive of me. Only, they think they can relate when I know they can't and it ends up making me feel even more alone. Which, in turn, makes me feel guilty because of how much I KNOW they're only trying to help. Agh vicious cycles.

I've always had trouble maintaining friendships. I just hate how aware I am of this one not working out and feeling like there's nothing I can do to stop it.

[LaborIntensive]

You bring into your life what you need and keep it with you while needing it/them. I am a loner and better off for it most times. Good luck in resolving this quandary.

[MissAriel]

Originally Posted by emisthebomb1495

I realize that I do it. I put thoughts and feelings into my friends' heads that aren't there. I think it's because I get so easily irritated with others that I always assume others feel the same toward me. But I can feel myself ruining the friendships that I have now, just as I have several times in the past. It's almost like I'm trying to isolate myself by projecting my negativity onto others.

Wow. I feel like I'm reading something I wrote myself. I do this constantly. I always assume people are mad at me or just don't like me, with no actual proof, and I create this whole issue inside my own head. It can become a very difficult situation. For me, it's like I'm never sure who actually still thinks of me as a friend, because I don't know if I imagined the "drama" or if I really upset them. With my experience, I don't recommend talking to friends that aren't experienced with depression, as it usually ends in someone making a casual comment with an extremely simple "solution" that leaves you feeling about 2 inches tall. We're here for you though, and understand your feelings

[Truthseeker14]

Originally Posted by MissAriel

Wow. I feel like I'm reading something I wrote myself. I do this constantly. I always assume people are mad at me or just don't like me, with no actual proof, and I create this whole issue inside my own head. It can become a very difficult situation. For me, it's like I'm never sure who actually still thinks of me as a friend, because I don't know if I imagined the "drama" or if I really upset them. With my experience, I don't recommend talking to friends that aren't experienced with depression, as it usually ends in someone making a casual comment with an extremely simple "solution" that leaves you feeling about 2 inches tall. We're here for you though, and understand your feelings

I feel you. /: Though I used to lean more toward the "no one likes me" aspect of it, it now feels like "everyone would just be better off without me and they just don't want to hurt me by leaving." Urgh, it's not a fun feeling at all and it just makes me lash out when I shouldn't, like I'm screaming "JUST GET IT OVER WITH AND STOP PRETENDING WE'RE FRIENDS ALREADY!!!" without actually saying it. Sigh.

I push people away a lot too when I'm going through a bad time. I isolate and just want everyone to leave me alone. At the start of the year I was hardly communicating with my bf even though I live with him and was questioning our whole relationship. It's better now but I am still pretty distant from my friends. I don't make any effort to see them anymore, it's all arranged by them.