[Luvable1082]

I was diagnosed in January 1999. The diagnosis was devistation, but I continued to work. I was hospitalized many many times. Finally with my job I was licensed to carry a gun. My employer was having me see the department psychiatrist. There was not a problem in fact the Psyciatrist was helping me. I did have to turn in a doctors note telling the reason for my hospitalization. Eventually the Cheif of the department that I was assigned to had me see the psychologist and he fired me. Well my best friend even now helped me repair a defense that I saw an independent psychologist. She stated that the chief was being discriminatory and recomended that no action being taken against me. I filed a lawsuit for the 8 weeks that I was off to get my pay and get my job back. I refused to quit I had 3 kids and a home to pay for. I won the case the state of Pa settled the case in the court house but they demanded that I not take the case to the EEOC. That would have enabled me to retire with my money in the fund the states money. I had over 20 years. Because of the law enforcement job I could have retired but my fear kept me from ever talking to the retirement board. In May 2000 I could no longer tolerate the harrassment that I was getting at work. They knew that the were doing it. They broke the contract of the lawsuit by preventing me to return to work for another two weeks. I could have filed with the EEOC then. Now who that is this upset can think straight and file a lawsuit, win and then go back to be harrassed ever other day a disaplinary hearing was being held several times a week. The union contract stated that if the time missed was an emergency and you wrote a letter asking for forgiveness they had to accept that. I was getting the approvals for all the time I missed. I finally had my wife of 25 years turn totally against me and she was talking to my parents turning them against me to tally I did not know as this was happening while I was working. I finally coloapsed from the stress and losing my job. I got commited to he state hosptal and when that happens you can never have a gun in your name so my job was gone forever. When I got a reply from the retirement board the pay was almost the same as my pay after taxes. I also got SSDI and again I could support my family and was only short a small amount maybe $100 below was my salary was after taxes, union dues, retirement and other miscelaneous with draws. My wife had turned my sisters and my parents against me totally. She refused to believe that I was diagnosed properly. Our marriage was over. Then her life colapsed she was arrested for shop lifting. I demanded that she got help. Six months latter she was an alcoholic, and go arrested on a military base. If the reciept totaled $200 or more her setenced would be 5 years manditory. I had enough of that. The marriage was over but she then went on a rampage to physically abuse me and verbally abuse me 24/7. In November I had saved enough medication to over dose and be sure that I would not awake from my heart stopping. I left my wife in Jauary 26th 2005. I called my social worker and she got me a place to live in a transitional living home. I was there 4 months and talked to my support group. One of the youger members asked me to travel to North Carolina to help her move home. I loved the area. The ocean and the outer banks. I decided that I had to move out of the area in May. I got my divorce and she got the house but she personally owed $60,000 in credit card loans. I was able to keep my retirement and SSDI. She owed so much money that we had to file bankruptcy. I lived through that and then bought a town house brand new. I had to buy everything,furniture, clothes everything for the kitchen and home. I was deeply in debt which depressed me allot. Finally I am paying off all of my loans now. I will be out of debt in one year now. Although I have lost my entire family we no longer talk to each other. I do have conversations with my kids but rarely. I am so lonely and sad. My Doctor supplies me with anti-anxiety meds in fact two different types. Anti-psychotics. Anti-depressants. I am treated well. I had trouble with one family doctor I was going to the ER 3-4 times amonth. The day that I saw a specialist for nerve damage he told me that my white cell count was over 23,000. I went to my doctors office and demnded to see a different doctor. The end result was I had to see a oncologist that day to determine what type of cancer I had. In the end i was non- malignant tumers of the liver causing me not to produce gammagobulin. I had constant infections. I could hardley walk and the found that I had many infections that where never treatred and broken bones. I was getting chemo for 4 years. I finally developed spinal meningitis not bacterial but viral. I have severe nerve damage in my spine and pain every day even through the night. Larry

[MarkNoo11]

Who was your attorney? You have a lot of uncertainty. For the legal stuff and the pension application you should have much better information from the settlement agreement. Tell your attorney to tell you what is going on. If the attorney refuses, ask the bar to tell him to tell you.
You should have a much better understanding of this than you do. You don't even know if you can retire but, you must know that you cannot work forever. I am not at all sure why the EEOC would have anything to do with your retirement.

if you are having difficulties with remembering it, ask you social worker to help you resolve all of this.