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Member Since Mar 2014
Location: Canada
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#261
Today we are having about the most depressing weather (for me, at least) - dark, rainy, kinda cool, kinda hot, very humid. It is an energy-sapper. Still I am trying to look at the bright side- I have the day off work, I am managing to get some things done at home, and I am meeting a friend for lunch for a pedicure. Trying to do 'happy' things. Wish everything wasn't feeling so hard today...
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Member Since Dec 2013
Location: United Kingdom
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#262
Today has had more ups for a change. The only downs were an argument with my brother and a failed attempt at following a recipe. I got my eyes tested today. The optician said my sight hasn't changed much since last time which was three years ago. However, since my glasses are worn out, I was entitled to a free pair of glasses on the NHS. She suggested that I go for lenses that protect my eyes from the glare of a screen. So, I've picked out the new frames I want and chosen to take her advice and I should have my new glasses within a week. I also discovered that garlic sauce goes well with salad.
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Member Since Mar 2014
Location: Canada
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#263
I am sorry newgal2, those days are the worst. I'm in a similar place, everything grey and blah. Hugs to you...
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Out of Order
Member Since Feb 2014
Location: England
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#264
Such a fraud. So lonely. So depressed. So worthless. I am nothing.
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Crone
Member Since May 2010
Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system.
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#265
I'm very upset, I had an appointment with the case worker who did nothing but tell me to do what I was doing, just try to find something to do each day. That was at 4pm they called the driving service to pick me up and no one came, the buildings all around there close at 5pm, one of the last people out around 5:30 called again on his cell phone, they said again they were coming, at 6:15 the night man came on and tried to call but no one was answering so he drove me miles to my home and stated asking all kinds of questions about boyfriends, husbands and if I drink, smoke etc.......... I'm shaking now, I just got home 10 ministers ago, never again! I'm staying home, it's safer.
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Member Since Jun 2012
Location: Ohio
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#266
Why do I have this annoying tendency to overthink and worry about everything? Just can't stop thinking about my crush, who I kissed on the last Friday before finals week. I really like him and really hope something will come of it once school starts back up. But I'm so worried that I'll just get hurt again and get my hopes up for a whole bunch of nothing.
__________________ "The rain keeps crawling down the glass. The good times never seem to last. Close your eyes and let the thought pass."
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Legendary
Member Since Mar 2011
Location: USA
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#267
Sore and tired, but otherwise okay.
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TheOriginalMe
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Member Since May 2014
Location: United States
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#268
I don't have 'friend'. Stop telling me to go out and hang out with people. I like to do stuff alone and be in my room.
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Nammu
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Member Since Nov 2009
Location: Rocky Mountains
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#269
Going gold panning today. I need some outdoor time. Hopefully, it will help
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Member Since Mar 2013
Location: RJAA!
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#270
and so i kinda went on a long break here.. again.
i don't know how i'm feeling, actually. kinda of the down, but not that bad. i'm not too sure where this is heading, either. and im meeting T soon; for some reason i don't feel like going. i don't feel like talking about anything. everything is just "meh." *sigh* __________________ "The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
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Member Since Apr 2014
Location: Los Angeles
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#271
Feeling on edge and extremely depressed
Been having nightmares about my childhood traumas every night Only good thing, in the dreams I stand up for myself Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ What feels like the end, is often the beginning |
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Poohbah
Member Since Jun 2011
Location: North Carolina
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#272
How strange it feels to be... out of the depressive episode. Been sleeping well, been managing my obsessions over food well, haven't self harmed in a while, been walking my dogs, been dealing with life overall just... fine. Depression still looms somewhere in my mind, but it's not as dark as it was. I finished the semester with three B's and an A. Which is an accomplishment, considering the fact that for half the semester I was so lost in my eating disorder that I was unable to concentrate on drawing a straight line - let alone on learning. Next semester, I'm going to do better. I'm not going to let anything get in my way. I'm aiming for A's. But B's are good, too. As long as I'm passing. And I did pass. So, I should be proud. I'm a little upset with myself for ditching the last day because of a presentation, but I managed a B even in that course. All in all, things are slowly looking up. I'm still isolated, but maybe I can pull myself out of that, even. Baby steps. One thing at a time.
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Member Since Apr 2014
Location: The Bahamas
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#273
Today for some reason, I just haven't been able to get the ball rolling. It's just like I've been stuck doing nothing all day, like my motivation just dissipated into the air. Anyone else find this happens in depression?
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Member
Member Since Dec 2013
Location: United States
Posts: 68
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#274
Been feeling weak and yucky since Tuesday and when my physical health is bad, my mental health gets even worse... I just want to be able to leave the house but I can't even do that.
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Out of Order
Member Since Feb 2014
Location: England
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#275
In the same place mentally even though my bleeding has responded to meds. I just can't get over this.
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Member Since Nov 2009
Location: Rocky Mountains
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#276
So far; so good. That could be because I haven't spoken to anyone yet Busy day with responsibilities I don't want to have anymore.
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Jun 2012
Location: USA -
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#277
Ugh...depressed....really wish I would have thought a lot more through in my life...I can't seem to stop looking back (that's depressing)...at least I'm not anxious (which results from looking too far forward for me)...Just very tired of being in this mild depression, which today was exacerbated by a dream that saddened me very much...
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Member Since May 2014
Location: United States
Posts: 63
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#278
Currently at church... alone... Church is depressing. I wonder why I am even here.
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TheOriginalMe
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Crone
Member Since May 2010
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#279
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TheOriginalMe
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Member Since Apr 2014
Location: USA
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#280
Feeling agitated. I have a lot to do today but I don't know if I can even do any of it. I feel really lonely and so sad and I just want some relief from the depression. Today is definitely not a good day so far.
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