[cheyrainyday]

Most days, my meds work. Some days, they don't. Like today. I barely have the energy to get up and change into my pajamas. I lay in bed, imagining euthanization. I call it my black hole. I'm getting sucked into it again. Its like I'm wearing heavy chains and carrying the world, like Atlas. My chest physically hurts. I'm tired but can't sleep. Yet I have no reason to be sad. Does anyone understand?

[Travelinglady]

Hi, cheyrainyday, and welcome to Psych Central! Yes, many of us can understand what you are going through. You do a great job of explaining how it feels.

Sometimes depression can be caused by an imbalance in brain chemicals, not by anything that has happened to us. Maybe that's your case.

I really suggest you talk to your med prescriber about this problem. It sounds like you need a stronger dose of your med or at least some kind of med adjustment. Okay?

[birchtree]

I understand too. On paper I have a great life. I just don't know why I can't enjoy it

[Jolisse]

I know exactly how you feel, my bad days are a living hell.
I've been dealing with depression for over 20 yrs. and have learned how to counter act it.
The worse thing to do is nothing. No matter how bad I feel, I always get up and do something.