[spacegeek1]

Hi there. I'm new to this forum and pc.
I was diagnosed last summer with moderate to severe depression by gp. Eventually went on citalopram and tooka cbt. The meds raised me to a level i could function at,and develop some new interests. Good so far. The trigger had been death of my dad the previos year, but the depression brcame very acute following an interpersonal conflict at work. I have a history of this. This sent me into a very dark place. Since then i have done some thinking. I'm in a better place now,but therehave been times when i have felt the darkness returning,mainly in relation to my relationships.
I have always felt different and struggled to be an 'adult'
Could there be something more complex going on.,as i'm scared of it repeating again and again?
Next week have meeting at work which may trigger.

[eeyorestail]

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. Unfortunately, sometimes depression comes and goes, and it sounds like this is what is happening to you. I'm not sure exactly what you mean by "something more complex," but if your current meds and therapy aren't working for you, maybe it's time to talk to your doc again.

I have the same feeling sometimes about struggling to be an "adult," and I am 32! Sometimes the world can be overwhelming.

Feel free to PM me if you want to chat! I hope things turn around for you, and good luck with your work meeting.

Originally Posted by spacegeek1

Hi there. I'm new to this forum and pc.
I was diagnosed last summer with moderate to severe depression by gp. Eventually went on citalopram and tooka cbt. The meds raised me to a level i could function at,and develop some new interests. Good so far. The trigger had been death of my dad the previos year, but the depression brcame very acute following an interpersonal conflict at work. I have a history of this. This sent me into a very dark place. Since then i have done some thinking. I'm in a better place now,but therehave been times when i have felt the darkness returning,mainly in relation to my relationships.
I have always felt different and struggled to be an 'adult'
Could there be something more complex going on.,as i'm scared of it repeating again and again?
Next week have meeting at work which may trigger.

[dandylin]

I am 51 and I'm still not sure if I'm an adult.
Are you talking with a therapist? If not, I suggest you do. Sometimes getting to the bottom of the inclination to depression, can really help. I have been on Citalopram and in therapy for over 2 years. I have made much progress and while I have dips in mood, I rarely get so low that I can't function.
Learning my triggers has been a great help. Good luck to you and welcome to the group

[Altered Moment]

I think it depends on the root cause of the depression. No matter what the cause triggers happen to all of us. So it is good to be aware of triggers and try to apply CBT to it.

Lets say the depression is totally genetic and biological. Then digging up your past may not be so useful. Triggers still happen but it would be more useful to work on the present situations. Relationships are the toughest and most triggering I think.

Lets say the depression comes from past abuse or trauma or parenting issues when growing up or environmental/situational factors. Then digging into the past and healing would be worth pursuing in therapy.

Either way if we are predisposed to go into them. triggers can definitely trigger it. Being aware of them and processing them differently makes a huge difference. Takes a lot of practice though. You are kinda rewiring your brain...for reals. The more biologically ingrained the harder that is.