[SheHulk07]

Does anyone ever feel like they don't want necessarily a suicide plan, but just to escape temporarily? I have a plan in my head, and pretty much know when and how, but I'm ambivalent about whether I want it to work or not. Does that make sense? I just want to escape.

That makes perfect sense to me amy. I hope you can hang in there

It does make sense to me - I like escape by withdrawing from life and being reclusive, not answering the phone, etc.

[makayla55]

It makes perfect sense to me too. I have some ways to escape since I can't bury my head in the sand when I want to. I escape by staying to myself away from others. I can sleep for hours with no intention on waking up (too bad I have to anyways) and I escape through the internet.

[SheHulk07]

Thank you. I feel like I'm crazy being stuck in the middle with my mindset like this. It's like I have hope that things might get better, and but I don't and I just want it to end.

Do whatever you have to do for now, just don't do anything drastic that you can't take back... consider meds/med change or a therpist (or more sessions / new therapist if already doing it). There are so many better things to do than ending it... I feel like that sometimes too but I know it's not worth it and I'm sure that deep down you do too (even if it seems a reasonable option at this exact moment)...

I'm not interesting to talk to but you can PM me if you want someone to talk to. Things can and will get better with just a bit of effort (and some things just on their own with time). Even if you can't muster the energy at the moment, just hang on for now and you will be able to muster a bit of energy soon. Take care

[SheHulk07]

Originally Posted by nowheretohide

Do whatever you have to do for now, just don't do anything drastic that you can't take back... consider meds/med change or a therpist (or more sessions / new therapist if already doing it). There are so many better things to do than ending it... I feel like that sometimes too but I know it's not worth it and I'm sure that deep down you do too (even if it seems a reasonable option at this exact moment)...

I'm not interesting to talk to but you can PM me if you want someone to talk to. Things can and will get better with just a bit of effort (and some things just on their own with time). Even if you can't muster the energy at the moment, just hang on for now and you will be able to muster a bit of energy soon. Take care

Currently I see 2 different therapists, plus go to 2 groups a week. I also just started a different medication 2 weeks ago, and will be changing it this week.

Well in that case my contrived advice is useless

Instead please accept this monster-strength bear hug that is so strong it hurts just a little bit, but in a good way and not a painful way

[lizzyjb]

I have learned one thing. When I escape, my damn issues take its passport and come with me. I can't escape because being myself is my biggest issue.

[eggplantlife]

I want to escape now. I feel I put too much on my friend and feel very needy all the time. She has her family she needs to give herself too. I want to get out of here though it is nice, but I want to get out. I was just thinking of a plan, but the only option for me to be homeless. Why can't I live like she is? I really want to escape.

[Fuzzybear]