[perseverance11]

Hello,

Regularly, I have flash of suicidal toughts when the night comes.

You can read about what bring that here: http://forums.psychcentral.com/anxie...528-hello.html

I sometimes think I should go to the hospital if it doesn't work at the crisis center.

[Bigmike727]

Hi, I find that my anxiety attacks are more common in the night. More than likely, its probably due to a lack of sleep, as I'm a student so I push my body pretty hard to study and whatnot. Maybe its genetics, who knows, the mind works in funny ways. Wishing you the best.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by Bigmike727

Hi, I find that my anxiety attacks are more common in the night. More than likely, its probably due to a lack of sleep, as I'm a student so I push my body pretty hard to study and whatnot. Maybe its genetics, who knows, the mind works in funny ways. Wishing you the best.

Yeah, in the night, we are more vulnerable to anxiety.
Even if I am tired, I can't sleep alone.
I am not in a lack of sleep because I sleep late in the night and wake up late in the morning.
I don't know if it is genetics; maybe.

Thanks.

[perseverance11]

I have flash of suicidal thoughts because of my anxiety.
I will be at crisis center tommorow, but I fear that it will not be enough.

I won 't be able to wait one to 3 months until I see a psychiatrist.

I need help to rehab me.

[eggplantlife]

Hugs. You were one of the first persons to contact me and comfort me. I hope you get better soon and that the place you go helps you out. Please hang in there.

[waterknob1234]

You are a very sweet, good person. I hope and pray you get the help you need. Anxiety attacks are miserable. Hang in there.

[Fuzzybear]

[slummerville]

I work nights and on off-nights, I find the same problem if I am up all night. Especially between 2 and 5am. Lack of life and humanity and the darkness tends to really expound upon the cycle of dark thoughts. I was taking sleeping meds to try and get me to sleep through this time period -- or just lay on the couch and try and watch a movie or tv to get the time by without getting lost in thoughts and plummeting into depression. It's always that horrible belly anxiety. I generally feel better when the sun comes up.

I think I would have a much worse time if I didn't work nights -- there are friendly faces and life around during the witching hours. I feel for you, I hope you find some help or some freedom from these feelings.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

Hugs. You were one of the first persons to contact me and comfort me. I hope you get better soon and that the place you go helps you out. Please hang in there.

Hello,
Thanks.
Like I said, I will try crisis center, but if it is not enough, I will go to the hospital, but maybe I aghould cancel for the crisis center or decale it for later and go to the hospital because they won't send me in the good hospital that I wangt to go if I am at the crisis center.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by slummerville

I work nights and on off-nights, I find the same problem if I am up all night. Especially between 2 and 5am. Lack of life and humanity and the darkness tends to really expound upon the cycle of dark thoughts. I was taking sleeping meds to try and get me to sleep through this time period -- or just lay on the couch and try and watch a movie or tv to get the time by without getting lost in thoughts and plummeting into depression. It's always that horrible belly anxiety. I generally feel better when the sun comes up.

I think I would have a much worse time if I didn't work nights -- there are friendly faces and life around during the witching hours. I feel for you, I hope you find some help or some freedom from these feelings.

It exactly what I mean.
Thanks for your reply.

[perseverance11]

I will try the crisis center finally. I called them to talk about my fears and if it doesn't work, they will send me in the hospital of my choice; to have access to the mental health institute.

[perseverance11]

Hello,

I entered the crisis center this afternoon.
I met an intervenent and I explained my whole situation.

I like him because he respects my pace and he told me not to put pressure on myself to be able to sleep at the crisis center .

We made a plan together for tonight that I stay active all evening and I do a relaxation technique before sleep and chat with others here on PC or internet. I will have access to internet at crisis center.

Anyway, I 'll do my best during this stay to try to move forward, but I do not put pressure on me to succeed.

I have a plan for my first night at the crisis center .

On Tuesday, the crisis center will contact my other intervenents to work in teams for me to wait in psychiatry and everything and how to treat me.

My plan is that I will be at my friend's house for dinner and a movie in the evening. Then I take a bus ride and then I go to the crisis center to relax me , go on the internet to prepare myself to try to sleep there.

Have a nice day.

perseverance11

[perseverance11]

I have some flahs of suicidal thoughts again tonight.
I am trying some methods to reduce my anxiiety, but it is difficult.

[DogTired]

Hi there, So sorry to hear that you're having a rough time. You have been so nice to message me and send comfort and I really appreciate that you did that. I usually feel worse at night too, and sometimes watch movies or listen to music, along with some type of sleep aid medication (Unisom, Nyquil, whatever). Anything to sidetrack my brain from feeling the worst of those hopeless, lonely feelings. I actually googled "moves about depression" and have been watching quite a few. Some are better than others but I can usually find a few things (or lots of things) that I can relate to in those movies, which makes me feel every so slightly less lonely. If I can see someone else going through it, it ironically feels a tiny bit uplifting because I don't feel as alone even though the movie is about suffering. I hope you get the help you need and are feeling better again soon. Sending good thoughts your way.

[eggplantlife]

Keep trying. Hope you are better.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by DogTired

Hi there, So sorry to hear that you're having a rough time. You have been so nice to message me and send comfort and I really appreciate that you did that. I usually feel worse at night too, and sometimes watch movies or listen to music, along with some type of sleep aid medication (Unisom, Nyquil, whatever). Anything to sidetrack my brain from feeling the worst of those hopeless, lonely feelings. I actually googled "moves about depression" and have been watching quite a few. Some are better than others but I can usually find a few things (or lots of things) that I can relate to in those movies, which makes me feel every so slightly less lonely. If I can see someone else going through it, it ironically feels a tiny bit uplifting because I don't feel as alone even though the movie is about suffering. I hope you get the help you need and are feeling better again soon. Sending good thoughts your way.

Thanks.

And if you are in need, feel free to message me.

[perseverance11]

Hello,

I managed to sleep in crisis center around 3:30 am . The medication helped me being more sleepy.
I woke up at 11am.
I met the interveners and I felt pressurized in the sense that they obliged me almost to sleep there every night, but IO must go at my own pace go at my own pace and it is what it was agreed in yesterday meeting that I slept there either yesterday or today, so it was yesterday. Tonight I will sleep at my friend's house.

I also feel pressure because they want me to be there often to evaluate me and know me, but I have activities and I do not want to feel trapped either. Yes, I spend time there, but I want freedom too.

The reasons why I do not want to sleep here today are that firstly , I want to go at my own pace because otherwise it makes me more anxious and it lowers the moral and me too, I got up late this morning , so I can not sleep at the agreed time over there because I will not be tired.

I called my counselor of the archipel d'entraîde to tell him this and if he can support me and whathe thinks.

I'll be at Mass this evening.

Otherwise, what do you think and do you have any advice for me in this situation knowing my pace and everything?

Thank you and have a nice day.

perseverance11

[Idiot17]

(((((hugs)))))

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by Idiot17

(((((hugs)))))

Thanks.

[perseverance11]

I asked at crisis center if I try to sleep there tonight and it doesn't work, if I could return to my friend's house.

[perseverance11]

I asked, but the answer I received maqde me almost angry.
If it does not work at the crisis center, I should stay there they said.

I will not spend sleepless nights every time.
And if I go to the hospital, they will take me to the nearest hospital, but I want to go to the institute.

This is not in 7 days that all my problems will be resolved.
I can try, but there are conditions that I can get myself to the hospital if I do not sleep. If they are not able to accept that, I'll cancel my stay at the crisis center.

[perseverance11]

It is discouraging me. I want sincerely to receive help and I need HELP, but they don't6 do it in the best way for me. I am desperate.

[perseverance11]

I just take an agreement with them that if I am not able to sleep at crisis center tommorow, I will go to the hospital that I want to go. It will probably go that way because my mental health illness is too hard to manage.

[perseverance11]

But I fear they will not respect my agreement, so maybe I should go to the hospital tonight.

[DogTired]

I've been thinking of you and hoping you have been helped in the way that YOU need. I only log on here every few days but please message me again if you need to "talk" with someone who kind of gets what you're going through, even though I haven't been through exactly what you're going through now. I'll keep watching this thread, too. I understand how trapped and frustrated and desperate you feel. Hang in there. I'm rooting for you.