[depressedalaskan]

For a couple of weeks now I have been going down hill. Depression has been pulling me in, it wanted to take me. I was so sick yesterday. I wanted to die. What do I do? How do I stop this? Do I want to stop it? I had no answers to any of these questions but I knew if I stayed by myself it would be over. Depression would win. Last few days I posted on Psych Central got a lot of care and thoughtful responses. I Thank everyone for that. And yesterday I went in to my psychologist office. They have a public puzzle to work on there. I sat there working on this puzzle until I felt better. I said Hi how you doing to a few people. But inside I wanted to be dead, I just wanted to cry. I was so sick. But I sat it out, I sat right there fighting my depression in front of god and everyone. Not one person noticed. But I knew if I need it (help) they would be all over it. My clinic is awesome. I talked to my psychologist today. Told him about my week including what happened yesterday. He told me I should have asked for help but I did the right thing by going in there to break the thoughts of ending my life. So when you are at rock bottom don't be alone. Break depressions hold on you by getting your mind on something else. I myself don't have family to go to. So I have to call a hot line, go to a clinic, go to the hospital, go for a walk, post on Psych Central. Do anything that you can do to break depressions goal. Thanks again to everyone.

[gayleggg]

Glad you are feeling stronger and have a good backup plan. Glad PC could be a help.

[Fuzzybear]

[waterknob1234]

Wow. Your story sounds so familiar. You sound just like me. I sometimes feel like my depression is a demon with a life of its own, just trying to suck me in. I will mentally fight it until I am exhausted and then I give in. I'm glad you are getting the help you need. I understand how you feel. I am glad you have found a good therapist. Hang in there. I hope things get better for you.

[Voss]

Good advice. Depression has the strongest hold over you when it's just you and depression in a dark room duking it out alone.

[maddnessreturns]

I agree. It's the hardest thing to do sometimes but being alone makes it even more difficult to get out of. I'm glad you were able to do something.

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[Rohag]

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[waggiedog]

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This is sooooooooooooo uplifting. A lot of us will KNOW only too well how absolutely AWFUL depression can make you feel. The hardest thing to do when depression strikes is ask for help. Somehow we don't feel worthy. Thankyou for telling us of your fight and consequently and uplifting story. Thankyou for sharing.

[Altered Moment]

I know for me when I am just starting to come out of one......still in it but glimpses of it getting better. At that point if I can be around people it sometimes brings me right out of it. Like I can feel it lift.

I would say you are on the upswing and that is great.

[Blitter2014]

Well done.....those words don't do you justice. Finding the inner strengh that you did, and recognition that the depression was talking not you- that takes guts. Its the hard option.

Your a better stronger person for handling this and I hope that same inner strength will allow you to recover. Hugs

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[Idiot17]

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