[813i]

One of the only things that keeps me going is the fact that if I die, someone else might be pushed to also commit suicide, whether it be family or friends.

Any thoughts?

[TheOriginalMe]

I don't know whether you would push someone else into suicide, but I believe that it wouldn't be the end of my depression. Even if suicide brought my suffering to an end (and I'm not sure that it would), the pain and the depression would live on for my loved ones. They would end up with the pain and misery that is my depression, it would stay with them forever. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy so why would I do that to someone I love.

It sucks so much that anyone has to hurt this much, I don't get it at all. I can't buy into depression being an illness right now, to me it is an eternal punishment and all that keeps me going is that I won't punish anyone else with this.

Stay safe and strong for the people you love.

sounds familiar..... welcome to the world of being "stuck". Sucks - doesn't it?

[Fuzzybear]

I know...

[regretful]

When I was at my lowest, it was the idea of leaving others behind to deal with the pain and suffering of loss which kept me connected...I'm not at that point anymore, and I wish you well with your struggle. Depression is a terrible affliction that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy (if I had one)...