I losing my mind

I just want to drive into the desert and scream to the top of my lungs. my depression is at its worst right now and all I can do is sit in my room with my headphones on crying. my meds are up and I cant get a refill after being cut off financially from my parents. my credit cards are all frozen so I can go out and get my mind off things. I want to talk to a friend but no one in my social group knows of my depression and im afraid it will scare them off. and the only couple people who do know of my troubles aren't speaking to me after I had an 'episode' on my meds (prozac) and our friendship was never fixed. im all alone right now and its scaring the s**t out of me. I can't see a professional bc my father refuses to pay for my treatments after I have cost him thousands so far already. my family is all business and you are not allowed to show weaknesses to anyone and I can't do it anymore. no one should live like this..

Hello, az_tc91! I am sorry to hear your parents are not understanding at all. We do, and we care. Feel free to keep posting in this thread, to share your pain and frustration. We hear you!

thank you. I'm just all out of options and its beyond frightening. my parents I guess have had enough. to them depression Is something you can control but even after my doctor told them I need more help and support they see me as weak in a sense. and not having my meds is really hard.

I'd go out and scream. What will it hurt?

Will your parents read anything about depression? Maybe if they read a little bit about it they would understand. Maybe print out your posts and share them with your parents.

Maybe go into the desert and scream if you are close enough to it. Sometimes screaming releases that internal pressure that depression can build