We hope everyone will read this. (Possible trigger: mentions of SU)

Fuzzybear · Jul 15, 2014, 09:52 AM

I know what you mean

peaceful thoughts to all

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Originally Posted by gayleggg

I make my pledge for the day. It reminds me when the thought comes to mind that I made a promise. I haven't always been good at standing by my promises, much to my regret and I have a lot but I can't turn back the clock. I can only choose to go forward and be safe for my self, family and all of you that support me.

Fuzzybear · Jul 15, 2014, 10:08 AM

I'm not sure I completely understand this post, but thanks for sharing your thoughts

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Originally Posted by Lobster Hands

I don't know what to think about this. As of right now I want to lose control of myself and commit suicide. Why would I want to say some pledge? I don't want to give up the possibility of getting something I've wanted since I was 15. (even if the desire is/was on and off) Perhaps I can think about trying, trying is so much easier than pledging, and there is less anxiety about not following through. I don't want to pledge to keep myself safe for 24 hours because I don't want that. (and because I know I will be safe in the next 24 hours) So instead of pledging, I will just say that I will try to look for something better to do or think about for the next 24 hours.

Sorry, I guess I'm just not ready to join the club.

Sorry, I guess that was a negative post.

Sorry for squishing the positive flow, I guess I'm just a big bad rain cloud.

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Lobster Hands · Jul 15, 2014, 03:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Tea&Sympathy

Hey Kiddo-

This isn't a club. You don't have to join or sign up or sit in a circle amd sing freaking kumbaya.

You are only doing this for yourself and if you feel uncomfortable, don't do anything. If anyone understands, I do. I walked around thinking about it for forty years.

Of course, a lot of life passed me by in the meantime. But it was a comfortable place-one I was used to. Better the hell you already know than the heaven you don't, right? And if my time is so filled with negative thoughts, then I don't have to go out of my way to help someone else, or maybe even myself for a change.

I really didn't intend to be sarcastic or anything of the sort. My thoughts were a lot different than what my words conveyed.

What I meant is that I just feel weird saying something like that. I would feel fake because I know it isn't what I want. I want to be able to be more positive. So I said I would try.

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Jul 15, 2014, 04:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Lobster Hands

I don't know what to think about this. As of right now I want to lose control of myself and commit suicide. Why would I want to say some pledge? I don't want to give up the possibility of getting something I've wanted since I was 15. (even if the desire is/was on and off) Perhaps I can think about trying, trying is so much easier than pledging, and there is less anxiety about not following through. I don't want to pledge to keep myself safe for 24 hours because I don't want that. (and because I know I will be safe in the next 24 hours) So instead of pledging, I will just say that I will try to look for something better to do or think about for the next 24 hours.

Sorry, I guess I'm just not ready to join the club.

Sorry, I guess that was a negative post.

Sorry for squishing the positive flow, I guess I'm just a big bad rain cloud.

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You just said how I feel too mostly. So thanks for that, because putting things into words isn't always my strong point! I didn't think you were being sarcastic or anything

SeekerOfLife · Jul 16, 2014, 04:54 AM

New day. New commitment. I dont think of this so much as a pledge to not take my own life (sounds negative). But rather as a commitment to my own safety & well being (sounds positive). Yes it amounts to the same thing. I just like to rephrase it for myself.

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Fuzzybear · Jul 16, 2014, 10:50 AM

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Originally Posted by seekersinking

New day. New commitment. I dont think of this so much as a pledge to not take my own life (sounds negative). But rather as a commitment to my own safety & well being (sounds positive). Yes it amounts to the same thing. I just like to rephrase it for myself.

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Rohag · Jul 16, 2014, 11:33 AM

Strength and peace to all who struggle to go on living.

gayleggg · Jul 16, 2014, 02:12 PM

I'm going to pledge for another day. I find it to be a postive thing in my life because it reminds me to think more positive thoughts. I can only promise today, because I don't know how I will feel tomorrow. I may be swallowed in the black hole tomorrow but today I choose not to think about it.

gayleggg · Jul 17, 2014, 10:02 AM

I like to think of this as a safety net and that is a positive thing. I make my pledge to kick SU thoughts out of my brain for today.

Fuzzybear · Jul 17, 2014, 10:26 AM

(((((((( gayleggg )))))))

regretful · Jul 17, 2014, 10:47 AM

Here again...holding on to hope needing to keep going on for my wife and my son...

Fuzzybear · 03:10 PM

I heard from Tea who said she's still pledging every day and that she thinks of everybody often

bronzeowl · Jul 19, 2014, 09:07 PM

I am ashamed to admit that I slipped, and that is why I haven't checked in.

I am making the pledge today.

shortandcute · Jul 19, 2014, 09:12 PM

I have to keep it in my back pocket and not even feel it or anything else. I have to spend most of my time right now looking for work, and so it has to not be there at all if I'm to find and keep a job at all.

Rohag · Jul 20, 2014, 01:00 PM

Regardless of method, may all who visit these forums find what they need to keep on going.

Fuzzybear · Jul 21, 2014, 07:39 AM

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Originally Posted by Rohag

Regardless of method, may all who visit these forums find what they need to keep on going.

gayleggg · Jul 22, 2014, 01:41 PM

I'm making the pledge today. I waited until this afternoon because I wasn't sure I could honestly pledge today, but realized this is the day I need to take the pledge. When I'm in danger, letting all of you here be my strength. The next couple of weeks are going to be tough for me, so I need to remember the pledge even more than normal.

I hope everyone else is in a better place.

SeekerOfLife · Jul 22, 2014, 05:35 PM

Pocket riders for Gayle!

Fuzzybear · Jul 23, 2014, 07:07 AM

(((((((( gayle ))))))))

Love,
Fuzzy

eggplantlife · Jul 23, 2014, 07:19 AM

I use this visualization every day when su thoughts come in. It helps. Am I suppose to pledge every day?
Gayle - hugs to you.

SeekerOfLife · Aug 01, 2014, 06:44 PM

I pledge for safety; wellness; no self harm.

SeekerOfLife · Sep 19, 2014, 07:44 PM

No suicidal thoughts for quite some time (yeah!!!). However, the roller coaster of emotional ups & downs appears on a regular basis. So, I do pledge for safety & personal care.

Abe Froman · Sep 20, 2014, 08:09 AM

Yesterday was rough. Today will be better. By default I can pledge today because I have responsibilities at the football game that will keep me busy all day and surrounded by 101,812 of my closest friends.

I knows that's weak and lame that I can't just do it on a normal day. But I feel like it's a start.

Sep 20, 2014, 09:59 AM

I'm willing to take the pledge for the day.
My therapist and I have decided that I use suicide as an option. We have been trying to come up with a way for me to take that option off the table. This may just work for today.
Even though I feel better as far as depression is concerned, I still have suicide on my mind.

Fuzzybear · 02:10 PM

I'm taking the pledge for one day.

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