[indigomom]

I am so ashamed of myself, filled with guilt that I know is just feeding my depression. I feel like the whole world is moving, enjoying this beautiful summer, and I can not get out of my bed. My husband has taken my 2 girls to the lake and I am in my room watching tv, because that has become my life. I feel frozen, trapped, like I can't take a first step. I feel immobile. I don't answer the phone, avoid social gatherings and have rejected all of my friends. I am failing my children. I am trying to get into see someone to change medications, but there are long waiting lists everywhere. I have an appointment with a new therapist on Tuesday, and it will be the first time I have been out of the house in several weeks. I am embarrassed to tell her how small my world has become and how selfish I am. I am 47 years old. I feel like I should not be doing this, but I can't put one foot in front of the other.

[kaliope]

hi indigomom
there is nothing to be embarrassed about at all. you see that a problem exists and you are taking steps to make it better. get on one of those wait lists. the time will come that you get in. I am glad that you made an appointment with a therapist. that should offer some relief. maybe she will have some connections to get you in to a dr sooner. it is really hard to do things when you are depressed. it robs you of everything. with the right treatment, it does get better though. ive only been on antidepressants a couple weeks and I already notice a big difference. hang in there. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[waggiedog]

Hello and good day indigomon. First of all I must say a big warm WELCOME to Psych Central. I wanted to WELCOME you because although I saw you joined in may, you hadn't posted much and I didn't WELCOME you earlier on. Oh darling, PLEASE PLEASE DON'T feel embarrassed about staying in bed all day because of your horrible depressioin'. Boy, I sure UNDERSTAND that feeling. It's part and parcel of the dreaded depression ~ HONESTLY it is. I've spent sooooooooooooo many hours under the duvet during the day, like 22 hours a day. I also won't answer the 'phone or door. I live with my 79 year old Dad and it's hard on him when I get the ''down'' time, it's a suicidal depression usually. I've met many folk here who live under the duvet during their depressive spells. As I've said, don't feel bad in any way, it's a natural consequence of depression. HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[atomicc]

Hello indigomom and welcome to PC I hope you can get into see a doctor soon.
Try not to be so hard on yourself we're very supportive here and I look forward to seeing you around the forums!