Day 51 Med free a mistake? Feedback plse

It's taken me days to get the motivation to post this... It's actually going on to day 51 med free was on Celexa for many years till it pooped out this past winter so weaned off it dr knows etc. Over most of discontinuation symptoms except for brain swooshes / dizziness came back almost a week ago.

I think the meds were still working somewhat as now I am still weepy quite a bit, no energy, no desire, motivation etc to do anything . I have been sitting outside a lot watching the birds and water I see it I know it's beautiful and that I like it BUT I feel no joy happiness from it. It's like I know the things I like but don't care to do them or feel anything most times. I get bouts of anger agitation but mostly I just feel sad or nothing ..

My dr prescribed me bupropion which I haven't started taking I keep thinking or wanting to try belief my body is still adjusting to being med free and I will be ok again stable...

Am I being foolish ? I think it's depression again as it is very genetic biological in my family or could my body really still trying to sort itself out?? As it is I am both better and way worse at the same time being off meds.. Better being I don't feel like eating, sleeping way lots. Wasn't sleeping proper or enough before and eating way to much bad coping to not really better I guess..

I also posted this in med group too wasn't sure where it best fit

I'm not sure what to tell you. Depression may be creeping back in. It could be the effects of being off of a medication you took for so long. Who knows. My pdoc put me on bupropion. It worked great at first. It makes me very energetic, too energetic. I don't sleep well anymore since being on it. The depression came back full force so now I am like a depressed person with energy if that makes any sense. I am not sure medication works so well for me, but that is me. Each person is different. What works for one person may not work for another person and vice-versa. I would check with your doctor on this one. Best of wishes to you. By the way, I really like your username.

I tried tapering off my AD, thinking it wasn't working. I was wrong, my depression came back with a vengeance. You may need to be on an AD, why not give Bupropion a try?
I hate being on meds, but it's better then sinking into that black hole.

Thank you I posted this thread unders meds heading too..water knob that makes total sense depressed with energy. Jolisse that is what I thought at first I realized it was still working after I came off just not as good. I wrote that I am going to give it to Oct to see which way I go more up or down.. Please read post I wrote in med forum to see how I came to that decision all input is very much appreciate sited..

Oh and my handle it is true regardless how down I go even with the suicidal thoughts somewhere there has always been hope.. Realizes this is a disease and not me..my inner self my true self is fine . Hope that makes sense to you as well

My inner self/ my true self still being there is what I believe too. The spark of hope and love is in us no matter how covered up. Hope springs eternal.

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Zinco big big hugs, you lighten my heart i truly wish for everyone to know that spark, to see, feel it and believe in it