Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 11

Aug 30, 2014, 01:23 PM

Bad day, good day, I don't know day. It ended pretty well.

glok · Aug 30, 2014, 02:28 PM

mulan · Aug 30, 2014, 03:36 PM

Ahrrr! I'm feeling lonely now, and was my choice... Is that feeling when everybody else go out, having fun and I have to stay home finishing my duties and goals. But in the end the lonelyness comes and work becomes hard... I will turn on some music and pretend I have company...

Aug 30, 2014, 11:08 PM

A busy day for me but had a lot of downs and ups. Mostly downs, especially in the early part of the day.

My friend suggested last night that I can do my laundry at his house and we'd go out for breakfast. I never did that before, but I thought, 'why not'? Sounded good to me. I normally hate to go out to eat for breakfast because I prefer to eat right when I get up. I hate having to drive a ways to his place and wait a while.

We started the laundry and went for breakfast. The breakfast was a big disappointment as a place I had in mind was crowded and a long waiting line. So we went to another place nearby and no one was there. So I ordered pancakes (I rarely have that) and it was awful. At least the owner admitted that it was bad and didn't charge us for it.

When we went back to his place, the washer did the job, but the dryer didn't. So I ended up leaving his place and having to dry my clothes at my place. I had housework planned to do, but a lot of it didn't get done because of the time wasted. But at least it was nice to be with a friend, though.

After that I did some housework and shopping. Felt depressed all day. I guess it's mainly because I'm concerned about some strange pains I'm having. I went for a bike ride, but it didn't make me feel better like it did before. I felt like I was in the dark clouds while riding and almost cried.

glok · Aug 30, 2014, 11:26 PM

Zoe86 · Aug 31, 2014, 04:22 AM

Not a good day. The daily routine is unbearable and don't know how to break through. Nobody cares.

glok · Aug 31, 2014, 04:41 AM

I care, Zoe.

tigersassy · Aug 31, 2014, 05:15 AM

I care to Zoe

glok · Aug 31, 2014, 06:41 AM

Nammu · Aug 31, 2014, 12:36 PM

Ups: my car is more or less fixed, I can use it to get around, get food and how to the library.

Downs: it's a holiday weekend which means lots of traffic and drunks, so I'm not going anywhere until Tuesday.

dandylin · Aug 31, 2014, 03:21 PM

Eh, feeling ok today

waterknob1234 · Aug 31, 2014, 06:10 PM

Happy to have a day off from work. Enjoyed church today. Earlier this week I was motivated to start keeping a daily journal and record the negatives and positives of each day. I made myself write down the positives even if I did not think there were any. I was surprised by how many positives I found in each day. I was also amazed to discover how my own anxieties and panic attacks added to the negatives of each day. I was on anti-anxiety medicine but get this, it gave me more anxiety and made my heart race so I had to stop taking it. Going to apply for a job before I get too sleepy.

Aug 31, 2014, 06:11 PM

Not much of a day today, but that's OK. I didn't expect much for today.

Just as I was heading out the door to go to church this morning there was some kind of commotion just outside. I didn't know what it was all about. A minute later I found out that a woman, who lives diagonally below me, had her bathroom ceiling collapse. It made me sick hearing about it. Thankfully it didn't happen to me, but it seemed like it was my next door neighbor's responsibility. I guess there was a pipe leak somewhere between under the bathroom floor and above the ceiling.

Went to church and it was alright. I went to visit my friend after that at his house. He didn't make it because he had a slight cold. So it was nice to talk to him; especially after the crisis that happened next door to my place.

I got home and had a quiet afternoon. Very hot outside and I felt very sleepy. I didn't feel like doing much. I hate this weather, but it's supposed to be the hottest time of the year where I am. Also been feeling very depressed and having dreadful thoughts.

tigerlily84 · Aug 31, 2014, 06:58 PM

I just want to hide from everyone.

glok · Aug 31, 2014, 10:42 PM

Rose76 · Aug 31, 2014, 10:59 PM

I'm okay, but I gotta get more exercise. Lacking motivation.

Aug 31, 2014, 11:27 PM

Been feeling depressed for most of today (as I've stated earlier today). I only went on a one hour bike ride. I didn't feel like doing more because I felt tired today and being very warm outside. The bike ride just made me feel only slightly better. Normally, it makes me feel much better. Well, maybe next time.

After dinner, things got better. My sister called and it was unexpected. It was OK, but much better than her calls to me before. After her, my brother called. We had a nice chat and he sounded pretty good, despite that he's not in good shape physically, and does not have long to live. He and I were never close and never got along. But we seem to be putting that stuff away now.

I called my friend and we had a good talk. Nothing much he had to say. But we'll probably get together to do something tomorrow. I don't know what. It's pretty hard to go to some great place when there's going to be a crowd. I hate being with crowds and hot weather.

GenmaJay · Sep 01, 2014, 02:24 AM

Last week was the worst it's been in a while. This week is better. When I'm clear-headed I try to find comfort in the moment, in feeling this good. Maybe so when I'm bad again, I'll think of moments like this and know it'll be over soon. Because it always seems to be. Even if it eventually comes back.