[SilentGirl808]

I feel like not doing anything, like work on my dream as a writer, overcoming my social anxiety or prepare for a job interview. All these negative and dark thoughts come across my mind, and it's making me feel worse. I don't even feel like reading, it's as if I'm addicted to these thoughts and feelings. I still feel a huge responsibility over therapy - part of myself wanted to comfort and protect my ex-therapist, and another part wanted to protect his woman clients. Should I tell my family about this? They don't know yet that I left therapy and I'll have to explain. I don't want the therapist to get in trouble and have him be mad at me if it all turned out to be my imagination. At every beginning of each sessions, he would sit down, then he'd smile and sigh before asking, "Where shall we begin?" Is that normal? Another thing, before we started the second session, he was following me into his office while apparently smirking at me. When I turned around, he said "Right through there" and gestured inside the room. Does that sound unethical? I thought I noticed other bad signs, too.

I just feel really hopeless. I don't feel like I could improve my writing skills, be able to make friends or memorize my answers to the interview questions. My family and I are struggling financially - and it doesn't help that the insurance makes us pay each month. We can't afford doctor visits at the moment, and it seems like I have to wait after next week until I schedule an appointment with my job counselor to discuss therapy and other issues.

[Clara22]

Hi,
I am sorry you feel so low right now. I am not sure but I would tell you to follow your gut (unless you have a history of leaving your Ts). One has to feel totally comfortable with one's therapist, otherwise, it does not work in my experience. How do you feel about waiting until your counselor next week appointment? is it OK for you to wait until that? maybe this group could help you to wait until then. OK, good luck with everything!

[SilentGirl808]

I don't really have a history about leaving therapists. This one would be the only one I left on my own. My first ever therapist I gone to years ago and had to leave because my parents could no longer afford, and it was a waste of money since I couldn't talk at that time.

I don't know if I could wait - well, maybe. I got volunteer work on the weekdays, and my aunt and uncle are coming over soon. They're staying for a few days so hopefully that will preoccupy my mind.