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I have been feeling really down again recently, and I'm having suicidal thoughts again. I don't feel like I'm in danger right now. I don't have a method or a plan. But I've been thinking about it again.

I told my doctor about this. I told him that I'd been looking into buying a gun, not so much to kill myself now but to have a method ready if things get worse. I'm afraid of being in pain with no way out.

We talked it over and I think he knows I'm not high risk. The next time I saw him he told me that he was going to contact the sheriff's office so that it's on file that he thinks I would use a weapon to kill myself. So I won't be able to get a gun license now.

When my doctor told me this, I felt… relieved? I'm not sure what the feeling was. I guess I was glad someone was looking out for me and was trying to keep me alive. Does that sounds weird?

I can't always help myself, so it feels good in a way to know someone else is going to help me. Like part of me still wants to be able to have a method ready, and part of me feels really glad that someone stopped me. I think it's less that I'm glad I won't be as likely to kill myself and more that I felt like he cares. I guess it made me feel more like I matter.

Anybody else feel this way?

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by exclamationpoint

I think it's less that I'm glad I won't be as likely to kill myself and more that I felt like he cares.

A gesture like his exceeds many of the usual treatments. I'm glad you have this doctor.

[NothingCanStopYou!]

Exclamationpoint that is so wonderful that your doctor did that and moreso that you are able to view it all in a positive light; let it warm you and feel grateful about it! WOW

[Altered Moment]

I think I would be mad that my rights were taken away. But it was a very dangerous idea to have a backup plan like that and he probably did the right thing. I would feel relieved too. Sounds like you have no other use for a gun other than your plan or else you would have owned one already. I have never owned a gun so there would be no point in me having one now and it would just be dangerous for me.

I am glad someone was looking out for you.