[BrliPerDis]

On monday i spent the early morning into the evening with a random stranger danger person. I went with this man in thoughts that he was going to take me home, with thoughts of being really nice to him so i can go home. Next thing i know he parks god knows where because i faded in and out between. Then he was putting some thing in my nose and when i came through a little he had his hand inside of me and im confused off this whole situation... then a woman sees us and he has me drive around... im still fading in and out, still not knowing whats going on still not coherent, i kept driving up and he says dont stop cause someone is looking for us confused driving on mountains i was going . to drive us off the cliff. He soon cought on got scared got behind the wheel. He keep driving up and kept me repeating a prayer over and over again. I told him i had to go restroom so he stops by a rest stop. I still dont know whats going on went to the bathroom, went to the stall sat down and just sat there. I didnt know what to do. I did know that we were miles up that hill, and alone and if i were to make the wrong move then things could have gone bad fast so i kept up a kind act, was following along to convince him to drive back down and take me home. He came in the the restroom and i told him i was still going. I came out and was saying i wanted to go back down, he started to take my pants off and i was just saying no over and over again. He just kept talking and got them off with how weak i was. Then he took me to the mens room and locked the door and put more stuff down my nose as i kept saying no over and over and his hand on my neck tilting my head back saying he couldnt put it back in the bag. Then we were up on the top of the hill in the middle of no where for hours of me saying no and just being taken over from my body just not being able to respond. Finally going back down to town he let me call my family so i can tell them i was ok. When i hung up i told him they called the cops reported me missing, he was frantic as i was broken, i didnt care enough to respond my mind body and soul were so weak i didnt realize what had really happened to me. I had him drop me off close to my house and i ran home incoherent, confused, why would he let me use his phone? hurt, broken, went through the door... and they all accused me of being drunk some where. I tried to lie, then just told them the half truth, but the monday of my soul murder, was never spoken till now. Half of me thought they wouldnt believe me, the cops were no help they just accused me of being drunk and on drugs. Just off them accusing me of being drunk for 24 hours and of being an alcoholic really just put me off from telling the them the truth... so now i sit here knowing depression, today surprisingly was going good. But then now im just in a slump and cant get out of it. I dont know how to take this, I dont know what i can cant should or shouldnt do. Im scared of him coming back, Im scared of outside and now depressed stages are coming out with all my other downfalls too. I want tomorrow to be better, I want to be how i was before any of this happened.

[Travelinglady]

I am sorry this happened to you. Please don't go with somebody you don't know in the future. Could he have given you something such as a date rape drug to make you less aware of what was happening?

Could you identify him? I am sorry the police didn't take you seriously.

I can see why you would feel depressed, with not having any control. Are you seeing a therapist? That might be helpful as well as talking to us here.

[BrliPerDis]

I think i was given the date rape drug before him when i was at a bar. I cant remember his face, I am going soon to see a therapist, I just really blame myself so much. If i were sober at the bar, i would have known some one giving me something and just went home, instead of getting caught up in that nightmare. I do know better. I know so much better than what happened i just still cant believe it happened

[Mustkeepjob32]

It sounds like you're having PTSD symptoms due to this horrible event. I hope you can see a therapist.