[geez]

I've been OK for quite some time. Today however I have this black cloud over my head. I'm suffering in silence.

[Idiot17]

(((((Geez))))) Hope tomorrow the cloud is no longer there.

Originally Posted by geez

I've been OK for quite some time. Today however I have this black cloud over my head. I'm suffering in silence.

It is amazing to me too, geez, how quickly one of those dark clouds can just mushroom seemingly out of nothing. This happens with me as well. I'll be doing pretty well & then, for no real reason it seems, suddenly I realize I've become engulfed once again in one of those dark clouds.

However, as the saying goes, what goes around comes around. So here's hoping your black cloud goes on it's unmerry way, & your OK feelings come back around again.

[geez]

Thank you Idiot? and Skeez. I had a therapy session today that involved emdr and it was difficult. I think that's why I feel so depressed. I feel hopeless that my T can help me. So much emotional neglect as a child and abuse. So much of what I am is a product of my childhood. It's so ingrained I don't know that I'll ever change. Its hard changing how I feel about myself.

I'm safe. I'll call my T if need be. It's just hard being in this dark space. I don't have time for this in my life.

I know, from my own experience, change is tough. But I believe it is possible. Maybe not the kind of wholesale change we'd like to see... but at least enough to make life more livable... one step at a time...