[ShyOne]

There are so many things going on in my life right now that I do not know how to deal with them all. I think things are going ok or starting to get better then I crash again. I feel as if I am walking around in a tunnel or dark room constantly and do not see any light to get myself out of this. Everyone keeps telling me that we are only given what we are strong enough to handle. I do not believe that because I am dealing with more then 3 people can handle.

I do see a new therapist tomorrow and I'm hoping that she can give me something to help with this depression that I am going through. I am not currently on meds and when I stopped taking what I had my doctor would not refill for me (I understand his reasoning). However I can not do this alone any longer. I consider myself a strong person because I have had to fight my whole life. However I am feeling like the weakest person in the world right now. I just want to be happy again, be the carefree spirit that I once was. I hate the person that I have become and want that person to just disappear and bring back the old me. I can't handle another thing added to my plate right now.

With all that I have going on, I have dropped out of school, I can't work right now (and this is driving me crazy) because of medical issues so I do not have the 2 jobs to go to daily, I have no support from family and I have no friends that I can talk with. I have never felt so lost or this alone in my life. I just don't know where to turn anymore.

Thank you for listening to me rant,

[Rohag]

Hello, ShyOne. May this new therapist be more helpful than earlier ones. You have survived so much... I can easily see it could be too much, certainly too much for nearly anyone to handle on their own.

[lilypup]

Hugs to you ShyOne. We are all your friends here. I see you on chat and always enjoy hearing from you. Chat is always there. Don't be afraid to jump in and get emotional support.

[Fuzzybear]