Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 12

tigerlily84 · Dec 09, 2014 at 01:14 AM

I have a sneaking suspicion that my med is pooping out on me. Things were great 3 weeks ago. And I just feel horrible now... anxious, can't sleep/stay asleep, headaches (migraines galore), and stomach issues. I don't have time for this. I have to prove myself at this job. It's so competitive there. TBH I don't know that it's the best environment for me - I think I'm too sensitive for it, I guess. Today I cried in my car as soon as work was over. I doubt it will be the last time that happens.

regretful · Dec 09, 2014 at 11:25 AM

Just returned from an MD appt...more weight gain, thanks to depression and Viibryd...up about 30 pounds...this stinks...wish I could just be done with this depression.

Fuzzybear · Dec 09, 2014 at 01:51 PM

I usually feel better after a good meal of salmon

Justicia · Dec 09, 2014 at 02:55 PM

Today is ok. It's not bad but not awesome. Yesterday I was able to keep working at my job even though there was an offer to go home but I decided to stay and I felt better because I was around people. My psychiatrist appt. is tomorrow and I'll tell him how ****** everything is. I can't live like this anymore. Ugh. About to start work soon. Wish me luck or something !

Bark · Dec 09, 2014 at 03:03 PM

I think the suicidal thoughts are a little less today. They're just thoughts; annoying ones, though.

I haven't been this consistently depressed in a while.

angelene · Dec 09, 2014 at 03:44 PM

I have a voice mail waiting for me. I know it's my pdoc's office calling to remind me of my appointment in a few days. Knowing I have the appointment is a bit of a relief.

TheOriginalMe · Dec 09, 2014 at 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Justicia

Today is ok. It's not bad but not awesome. Yesterday I was able to keep working at my job even though there was an offer to go home but I decided to stay and I felt better because I was around people. My psychiatrist appt. is tomorrow and I'll tell him how ****** everything is. I can't live like this anymore. Ugh. About to start work soon. Wish me luck or something !

Carrying on at work when depression and emotions are running riot is so hard. Last week I was given bad news at work, it absolutely crushed me, it took 3 days before the ******** offered me time off and that was only an hour! You did well staying on and it really can help being around people. Hope your day goes better than yesterday.

TheOriginalMe · Dec 09, 2014 at 05:23 PM

I kept as low a profile as possible, but I still feel that everyone at work is out to get me, even though they've already won. Talk about kicking someone when they are down. To cap it all, my liver function test results have come back high, that probably means I'll have to change meds in the foreseeable future and the remaining options aren't all that great.

Turtlesoup · Dec 09, 2014 at 07:21 PM

Slept pretty well last night & enjoyed a low key day.

Espresso · Dec 09, 2014 at 10:17 PM

I've had a rough day. I made some bad decisions because of said rough day, and now I hate myself for it. I want to destroy myself.

lonely-and-sad · Dec 09, 2014 at 10:28 PM

I am under huge stress.

Rose76 · Dec 09, 2014 at 11:40 PM

I'm better tonight than I was.

Justicia · Dec 10, 2014 at 02:31 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

Carrying on at work when depression and emotions are running riot is so hard. Last week I was given bad news at work, it absolutely crushed me, it took 3 days before the ******** offered me time off and that was only an hour! You did well staying on and it really can help being around people. Hope your day goes better than yesterday.

Thanks, I really appreciate it a lot. And yes, today was definitely better than yesterday, I was sleepy but otherwise not depressed, I just don't do well being alone ! Ever, which is something that I have to work on that's for sure.

Justicia · Dec 10, 2014 at 02:39 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

I kept as low a profile as possible, but I still feel that everyone at work is out to get me, even though they've already won. Talk about kicking someone when they are down. To cap it all, my liver function test results have come back high, that probably means I'll have to change meds in the foreseeable future and the remaining options aren't all that great.

Try and focus on the task at hand try and be as much in the moment as possible, if that's even possible. I've been trying for so long to try and stay in the present moment but my depression just ignores that and says ***k that and keeps me in the "what if","I should be","Why aren't I" moments. Good luck with the future med change, I know how difficult those can be with moments of feeling unmedicated can be. But I wish you the best of luck !

aprillynn197 · Dec 10, 2014 at 08:41 AM

Today is OK I'm feeling Like I can do things. Even though a small cloud still resides over my head

lonely-and-sad · Dec 10, 2014 at 08:45 AM

A step closer to the end. I am interested to hear from anyone here that copes well with complete isolation.

Dec 10, 2014 at 08:50 AM

I cant cope with isolation. I need to be with someone. I've been isolated for 2 and half years in my apartment with almost no girlfriend to visit.

I can only read yours lonely and sad, sorry, I'm really mad at myself today. Really mad.
Aren't we all meant to have someone to love? I always thought that, and I'd never thought I'd be getting old and unhealthy with no one that loves me.

lonely-and-sad · Dec 10, 2014 at 08:53 AM

Yeah me too. How old? F or M? And have you tried a lot of things like me?

Dec 10, 2014 at 09:24 AM

It's official, I have no one.

regretful · Dec 10, 2014 at 10:17 AM

So very tired of this depression...

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regretful Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2012 Location: USA - Posts: 1,863 12 1,194 hugs given	Dec 09, 2014 at 11:25 AM #782 Just returned from an MD appt...more weight gain, thanks to depression and Viibryd...up about 30 pounds...this stinks...wish I could just be done with this depression.

Fuzzybear Wisest Elder Ever Member Since Nov 2002 Location: Cave. Posts: 96,445 (SuperPoster!) 21 81.4k hugs given	Dec 09, 2014 at 01:51 PM #783 I usually feel better after a good meal of salmon __________________

Bark Poohbah Member Since Oct 2008 Location: PsychCentral Posts: 1,185 15 8,255 hugs given	Dec 09, 2014 at 03:03 PM #785 I think the suicidal thoughts are a little less today. They're just thoughts; annoying ones, though. I haven't been this consistently depressed in a while.

TheOriginalMe Out of Order Member Since Feb 2014 Location: England Posts: 15,845 (SuperPoster!) 10 17.4k hugs given	Dec 09, 2014 at 05:23 PM #788 I kept as low a profile as possible, but I still feel that everyone at work is out to get me, even though they've already won. Talk about kicking someone when they are down. To cap it all, my liver function test results have come back high, that probably means I'll have to change meds in the foreseeable future and the remaining options aren't all that great.

Espresso Poohbah Member Since Dec 2013 Location: United States Posts: 1,432 10 368 hugs given	Dec 09, 2014 at 10:17 PM #790 I've had a rough day. I made some bad decisions because of said rough day, and now I hate myself for it. I want to destroy myself.

lonely-and-sad Account Suspended Member Since Nov 2014 Location: Australia Posts: 371 9	Dec 09, 2014 at 10:28 PM #791 I am under huge stress.

Rose76 Legendary Member Since Mar 2011 Location: USA Posts: 12,627 (SuperPoster!) 13 5,464 hugs given	Dec 09, 2014 at 11:40 PM #792 I'm better tonight than I was.

aprillynn197 Member Member Since Aug 2014 Posts: 451 10	Dec 10, 2014 at 08:41 AM #795 Today is OK I'm feeling Like I can do things. Even though a small cloud still resides over my head

lonely-and-sad Account Suspended Member Since Nov 2014 Location: Australia Posts: 371 9	Dec 10, 2014 at 08:45 AM #796 A step closer to the end. I am interested to hear from anyone here that copes well with complete isolation.

lonely-and-sad Account Suspended Member Since Nov 2014 Location: Australia Posts: 371 9	Dec 10, 2014 at 08:53 AM #798 Yeah me too. How old? F or M? And have you tried a lot of things like me?

Anonymous37914 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 10, 2014 at 09:24 AM #799 It's official, I have no one.

regretful Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2012 Location: USA - Posts: 1,863 12 1,194 hugs given	Dec 10, 2014 at 10:17 AM #800 So very tired of this depression...