I’m depressed right now. I’m not gonna lie.

I had a change in medication, and also enrolled in school recently. I thought it’d be what I need to feel better. But I find myself just wanting more, and feeling like, I won’t be happy till I get it: I want to move to California, I want friends and closeness. I recently blocked a friend of mine on Facebook for being happy, and also not being happy for me when I enrolled in school (I guess I'm an out of control wretch). I feel like she doesn’t care about me. A lot of my friends are moving on without me. I wish people cared like they used to. Then again, when did they care? Looking as far back as I can, through all my really hard times in life, no one was really there for me, not even my parents. Ok. A psychologist was there for me. But he had to be. It was his job.

[Blue_Bird]

Hi starrysky, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Is there a way for you to maybe get back into therapy?

[waterknob1234]

When I felt my worst depressed I felt like nobody cared about me. That's a hard feeling. I agree with Blue Bird. Therapy may be helpful. Hope you are feeling better soon.

Thanks. I'm feeling better. Yeah, I think it's definitely a symptom of depression when I think that no one cares about me, or I "have no one." I know thats not true.

I am in therapy right now. I go once a week. I feel better when I'm there. But I'm not really sure overall how much it really helps me outside of being there. I actually called my therapist yesterday because I was so upset. And she never called me back. She's done this before. She'll say, "I was busy, I forgot, don't read into it."

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Originally Posted by starrysky

I’m depressed right now. I’m not gonna lie.

I had a change in medication, and also enrolled in school recently. I thought it’d be what I need to feel better. But I find myself just wanting more, and feeling like, I won’t be happy till I get it: I want to move to California, I want friends and closeness. I recently blocked a friend of mine on Facebook for being happy, and also not being happy for me when I enrolled in school (I guess I'm an out of control wretch). I feel like she doesn’t care about me. A lot of my friends are moving on without me. I wish people cared like they used to. Then again, when did they care? Looking as far back as I can, through all my really hard times in life, no one was really there for me, not even my parents. Ok. A psychologist was there for me. But he had to be. It was his job.

I thought your description of 'wretched monster' and 'out of control wretch' brilliantly summed up the turmoil and distress some of us suffer when depressed. I am pretty sure anyone who can do this has more going for them than they might think and I hope you can take heart from that.

[co146]

Hi please don't feel discouraged. I too feel like that and I deleted my instagram because I saw everyone having a life but me. This is just another "hump" for us to get over. You can do it! Also if your therapist is making excuses like that perhaps try and changed therapist she seems unprofessional. Stay safe!