[Amphiptere]

I am feeling millions of miles away from okay.

I have no family as they have all passed away, and I am so damn introverted that even my best attempts to make friends has been pretty hopeless. I put my energy into trying to make myself a better person and to building a life for me and my former partner. I am completely gutted.

I have rung every friend I know, but they all have their own lives and their own issues, so I feel like I am stuck here staring at a reflection of my worst nightmare. I have been down this road before (divorce), and it was horrific enough when I wanted to let go because of the infidelity. This time it isn't even something I can hate my former partner for - he cannot cope with my GAD and MDD.

Now I struggle to find a way to heal while I pace, and panic, and watch all my dreams turn to ashes.

[gloamingone]

I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time. :-( It's a shame that some people just can't cope with our illnesses. I've lost a boyfriend and a husband that way (as well as friends).

I hope you find friendship on PC and that things start looking up for you.

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[Altered Moment]

I am really sorry. I lost a real good relationship too because she couldn't handle my depression. I can't blame her but that doesn't mean it didn't really hurt. Like a kick in the gut.

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[vital]

Originally Posted by Amphiptere

I am feeling millions of miles away from okay.

I have no family as they have all passed away, and I am so damn introverted that even my best attempts to make friends has been pretty hopeless. I put my energy into trying to make myself a better person and to building a life for me and my former partner. I am completely gutted.

I have rung every friend I know, but they all have their own lives and their own issues, so I feel like I am stuck here staring at a reflection of my worst nightmare. I have been down this road before (divorce), and it was horrific enough when I wanted to let go because of the infidelity. This time it isn't even something I can hate my former partner for - he cannot cope with my GAD and MDD.

Now I struggle to find a way to heal while I pace, and panic, and watch all my dreams turn to ashes.

Hi Amphiptere,

You've got cyber-friends here at least.

If I were in your shoes, I'd be looking for pure sensory experiences that don't involve any thinking. I would going for lots of walks. I LOVE walking. The Fall colors, the sound of the ocean, colors, sounds, smells that I love, music that I love, a delicious glass of water, really good food, the feeling of your own body. That's what I'd be looking for. These never let you down.

- vital

[Amphiptere]

Thanks all. I will do my best to start these things.

I just got off the phone to my doctor's office. They will ring me back ASAP since this has kept me from eating or sleeping well for two days. Thankfully they are understanding like that.