[lauralost]

Today I have learned that I might not be able to get my graphic designer degree next summer.
I have spent the last 4 and a half years pouring all my money into this college, even my fiancé had to help me out. I have nothing else in my life... no stable job, barely any social life...
I am pretty much useless. I am not that good in my field, to get a job without a degree and I have no other skills. I started studying so I don't have to work at McDonalds... it wouldn't exactly do my anxiety any good. But now it seems unavoidable.
This is my whole life... and I feel so hopeless and miserable. I will be stuck with a mediocre job while everyone else in my age gets their life running. It's like I wasn't meant for this life... not even sure why am I alive.

[favoritefountain2]

You said, "might" - is there a chance you could still get it? I refuse to believe you're useless - no one can put that much time into something and not have some kind of skill. I bet you have more skill then you believe! Have you considered looking into doing some volunteer work with a local non-profit to build a portfolio?

Don't give up yet. I know it seems hard right now, but you DO have options. I've been where you are before - I know what it is like, but don't give up yet.

[lauralost]

Originally Posted by favoritefountain2

You said, "might" - is there a chance you could still get it? I refuse to believe you're useless - no one can put that much time into something and not have some kind of skill. I bet you have more skill then you believe! Have you considered looking into doing some volunteer work with a local non-profit to build a portfolio?

Don't give up yet. I know it seems hard right now, but you DO have options. I've been where you are before - I know what it is like, but don't give up yet.

I have like... 10% chance that this can be solved. It will turn out tomorrow.
I do have some skills, but I am still just mediocre.
Working for free is not an option sadly. The school fees are high, and I can't rely on my fiancé to buy everything for me.

Thank you for your kind words, I feel a lot better now.

[favoritefountain2]

I get not being able to work for free - I've been there too. Since you can't work for free, perhaps there are some alternative employment paths you could look into - something like "Creative Circle" which is a temp agency for creative types here in the United States - anything similar near you? Maybe you could get temp marketing work where they just need someone who knows the software, and can follow a brand guide. You don't have to worry about your skill level, and it will pay you while you recover your finances.